I over did it today, and the day isn't even over.

Normally, I'm at my best when I'm at work but not today.

I had my eating all planned out today, as I do most of the time - however, something got in the way and I don't know what. Everything went as planned, even ordered what I planned on ordering from panera, the problem is... They messed up and gave me a whole sandwich rather than half a sandwich... And I ate the whole thing... And the soup..

That is the most calories I've had in a meal in over 17 months and I'm feeling it right now. I feel fat again, I feel like my clothes aren't fitting right, and I just feel disgusting. I know this isn't true, and I know my clothes fit fine. But it just shows what one bad meal can do to someone mentally.

I'm not even kidding when it comes to the clothes either, I'm fidgeting every two seconds cause I feel like they are tighter (they aren't). Ugh.

The sandwich was delicious by the way, so was the soup. But damn them for giving me the whole thing. I don't know why I did it, it was a loss of self control, and I can't let it happen again. I'm actually surprised I was able to eat the whole thing and not get sick considering I had gastric bypass.. I know the stomach stretches back out a bit with time, and that's fine. It's more of the not getting sick part that is throwing me off. Normally I'd be down and out for at least an hour after a meal like that, but like I said - it's been awhile so I guess it makes sense.

Oh well.

I have an appointment with the surgeon for the body lift tomorrow. Setting a date for the surgery, so that's a good thing.

I dunno. I'm gonna sit here and feel nasty for a bit... And wait for more football to start.