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Friday, May 4 2012 - I think I can, I think I can, I think I can
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Yesterday afternoon and evening I was feeling very irritated and I wanted to eat - everything I've been avoiding. I settled for a fun-size bag of peanut M&Ms. They really weren't that good. I also discovered it's difficult to find out tha calories in such a small bag - roughly 8 M&Ms. I did find it on the M&Ms website. Anyway, they didn't help, not even for a little while.
BUT - a nice walk with my husband and a nice conversation over dinner worked wonders. We walked for about a half an hour or so circling a large parking lot then had dinner at Denny's. I ordered the chicken apple cranberry salad and water. While we were waiting for our food we talked. I explained about being irritated and just wanting to eat earlier and how that's not really what I want. What I really want is to lose this excess weight and be healthy again. I explained how frustrated I was and how upset I was that I probably wouldn't be able to reach my initial/interim goal of 198 pounds by 7/30/2012. With 28 pounds to lose and just over 12 weeks, I probably won't make it. My DH says so change the date or change the amount you want to lose by that date.
So simple right? I mean what's the big deal right? I don't know why it's so important for me to reach that specific number by that date. The date is my birthday and the number was supposed to be my present to myself. That's why that date is so important, but why 198 pounds?
I've weighed over 200 pounds for at least 10 years - maybe a little more. I know I weighed 185 in November 1999 - that's when they removed my thyroid and they weighed me when I was admitted to the hospital. I remember the surgeon warning me not to gain more weight, which is exactly what I did. Roughly fifty-five pounds more. So why do I need to lose down to 198 to be happy? Why that number instead of say 210 or 200? So I thought on it for a while and this is what I came up with.
Losing weight is like pushing a gigantic boulder (all that extra fat) uphill. 200 pounds is my personal peak - the mountain top - my biggest struggle. If I can get to the other side of 200, I can do the rest. Until then, I'm just not confident that I have what it takes to get there. I think I've actually reached 208 in the past before giving up and gaining back to 220 and 230 and then on up to 238. I have to break 200 before I'll know deep down inside that I'm really ready to give it my all to reach 140 - that I'm in it for the long haul. I'm like that little engine that said I think I can, I think I can, I think I can on my way to the top of the mountain where I can say I know I can, I know I can, I know can.
BUT - a nice walk with my husband and a nice conversation over dinner worked wonders. We walked for about a half an hour or so circling a large parking lot then had dinner at Denny's. I ordered the chicken apple cranberry salad and water. While we were waiting for our food we talked. I explained about being irritated and just wanting to eat earlier and how that's not really what I want. What I really want is to lose this excess weight and be healthy again. I explained how frustrated I was and how upset I was that I probably wouldn't be able to reach my initial/interim goal of 198 pounds by 7/30/2012. With 28 pounds to lose and just over 12 weeks, I probably won't make it. My DH says so change the date or change the amount you want to lose by that date.
So simple right? I mean what's the big deal right? I don't know why it's so important for me to reach that specific number by that date. The date is my birthday and the number was supposed to be my present to myself. That's why that date is so important, but why 198 pounds?
I've weighed over 200 pounds for at least 10 years - maybe a little more. I know I weighed 185 in November 1999 - that's when they removed my thyroid and they weighed me when I was admitted to the hospital. I remember the surgeon warning me not to gain more weight, which is exactly what I did. Roughly fifty-five pounds more. So why do I need to lose down to 198 to be happy? Why that number instead of say 210 or 200? So I thought on it for a while and this is what I came up with.
Losing weight is like pushing a gigantic boulder (all that extra fat) uphill. 200 pounds is my personal peak - the mountain top - my biggest struggle. If I can get to the other side of 200, I can do the rest. Until then, I'm just not confident that I have what it takes to get there. I think I've actually reached 208 in the past before giving up and gaining back to 220 and 230 and then on up to 238. I have to break 200 before I'll know deep down inside that I'm really ready to give it my all to reach 140 - that I'm in it for the long haul. I'm like that little engine that said I think I can, I think I can, I think I can on my way to the top of the mountain where I can say I know I can, I know I can, I know can.
1 comments so far.
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a decade ago
Hi Lita! Your goal is totally reachable. It's only 2 lbs. or so a week. But don't push it. If you don't make it, it's ok. As long as you have lost something and not gained. I feel that you are obsessing too much on to reach a certain weight by a certain date. If you do that it will go hard on you if you don't reach that goal. Your body doesn't realize what the date is. Only your mind.
Keep going on those walks with or without hubby. Eat your dinners earlier so you'll have plenty of time after for that walk. It gives you time to reflect on where your at and where you want to be. I do my best to make sure I have one hour to devote to a walk. Some days I walk slower, some days faster. But always I am out for an hour and no less.
In an earlier blog you commented on how you like to plan. Plan your meals and stick to your guns. And learn to have a time just for yourself that you enjoy so you can think straight on where your headed. It's hard I know. But I feel confidant you can be that little engine.
by JULES62