LOVE2RUN's CalorieKing Blog
Part I: The battle was lost before it was even begun.
Sunday, March 22nd 2009
My heart is telling me to stop. My tummy is telling me I'm way past full. My brain is telling me to find something else to do, running through the lists upon lists I've made of what to do instead. Telling me to do something, anything - anything but what I'm doing now.But it's too late. I can't stop it. The binge has begun and I know not when or where it will end. I do know it will end in shame and disgust. A sink full of dirty dishes. A garbage can full of empty wrappers and con...
Always on my mind....
Saturday, March 21st 2009
The battle for control of my weight is a never ending fight. I think of nothing else. What can I eat? How much does it weigh? How many calories? Write it down, record it, analyze it for next time. Exercise, when, where and how much?I don't think there is a single survivor of the weight loss battle that hasn't sat down for a meal and wished, just once, they could enjoy the meal without wondering what it will cost them....
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Always...
Never give up, again
Thursday, March 19th 2009
Well, today is another day this week that I'm not going to get my little green check. Funny how that little green check now means as much to me as that number on the scale. It's a sign of my daily progress. A sign of my resolve for success; or in the case of this week, a sign of weakness.I'm not going to let the negative voice in my head take over. I'm not going to verbally punish me with demands for improvement. I'll sit down and write out the day the way it should have been played...
because when comes down to it, I really do care
Saturday, March 14th 2009
Do you ever get that feeling that you just don't care anymore? Staying in the weight loss/control mode can be so consuming. Counting calories, endless exercise, researching weight loss topics. Fixing "special" meals just so that you can eat, passing on the cookies, candy and ice cream...again...watching all those other people who just don't care. Those same people who laugh at you and tell you it's not worth giving up the foods they love. Why do I care? Why am I willing to give u...Revenge is soooo sweet...
Friday, March 13th 2009
I'm a firm believer in Karma. The energy you put out is the energy you receive. So I strive to keep a positive outlook, happy disposition and help those who are truly in need and deserving of help. I strive to; but sometimes, revenge is so sweet. Superior, evil thoughts bounce around my inflated ego. Now before you think ill of me, let me explain.Before I gained all the weight, when I was young, thin, and beautiful, I dated a boy during my high school years. He was so gorgeous, all t...