Feeling pretty depressed. Not sure why, except that the weather is so gloomy. It’s usually because I am beating myself up over something. Maybe I am beating myself up over the binges. Maybe I am beating myself up over my inability to make a beautiful hand-made something for my soon to be born granddaughter. I tried knitting some socks and it wasn’t working too well (I’ve been teaching myself to knit for about 8 months). Then I tried making a shirt and my serger wasn’t stitching nice, and it got all screwed up, and my sewing machine is broken. And I don’t have time for any of it. Oh well. Only grandma’s that don’t work, and have nothing to do, have time for making crafty things. I went shopping and bought some cute outfits for her instead. My girls and I are going to go see d#1 this weekend and have a little private baby shower (it’s her 2nd. She already has a boy). I think I was even criticizing myself for the things I bought. I had such a hard time deciding…… Oh well….

Don’t feel like keeping my food journal. I ate something real bad yesterday and I am not going to say what it was!

I exercised at home last night rather than at the gym. I did good, but didn’t burn as many calories as I do at the gym. Didn’t burn up what I ate. I went up and down the stairs for 10 minutes and then did squats, lunges, weights and the medicine ball for the arms. Worked for 30 minutes and then did a balance ball routine on a video. It’s hard to exercise at home, even though I have a lot of experience knowing what to do. Having the heart rate monitor helps, because it makes me keep going and trying to get that heart rate up and put the time in. The stairs were actually pretty good at getting the heart rate up. I wonder if everyone trying to lose weight has as much equipment at home as I do. I have a balance ball, a medicine ball, all kinds of weights, a stepper, a trampoline and those stretch bands. LOL

The dogs followed me around while I was exercising and were confused about what I was doing. LOL. At the end, when I lay down on the mat to do leg exercises with the ball, one of the dogs came and laid on me and that was the end of my exercise. Hehe. We are dog-sitting an extra dog and each one struggles to get the most attention.