Did great yesterday! Ate a doughnut this A.M. Yes, I went out and bought it. I sometimes run out for coffee at Dunkin Doughnuts at morning break. I don’t usually buy a doughnut, but I was real stressed today and really hungry already, even though I had eaten healthy foods. It is totally gloomy here and has been for days. The forecast is not looking good for the rest of the week. Had to drag myself out of bed today in the dark and was very pokey getting going.

Work has been very stressful and thought it’d be better today, but first thing when I came in there was a problem. Geeeeeeeeezzzzzzzz.

Did a great exercise yesterday. I really looked forward to it after the w/e. I have w/e’s off from exercise and I miss it. Truly. Exercise is really getting into my very core of my being and I want to be active more and more.

I have FB trainer tonight. Ugh. He’s not very inspiring. I need someone that’s so into it that they talk about it while they train and not just go through a routine. I want someone that’s going to tell me about the muscles and the machines and routines and new thoughts on eating healthy. He just follows his routine and that’s it. I know he’s being overworked, but, hey!, I am paying for it, and I should enjoy it. I should be getting out of it what I need. What helps me. At first he was more explanatory, but then……… I think he might be a newbie. Like most young trainers, he wants to train athletes. Like that is going to happen! Sorry young man, you’re going to be stuck training fat old ladies the rest of your life! You might as well learn to like it.

Last week he tried to talk me into a $200 heart rate monitor. “It’s like having your own trainer every time you exercise”, he said. Well, what do I have you for then????? I already bought a monitor from him in December. Now I should get another one? He wants me to give mine to my husband. My husband is an old man and couldn’t care less about having a heart rate monitor! That’s the thing with the trainers at my gym. They are always trying to sell you things. That’s the way the gym wants it I guess. Just forget selling me stuff and explain what I want to know!!!! You pay all this money for a trainer and all they do is follow some routine that they made up in their head and use for all their clients. How “personal” is that????

Sorry to go on, but boy it feels good to let it off my chest……and believe me, there’s more I could say……….