Well, I promised myself that I would track on the weekends. So, I am tracking now for yesterday and today. I've been having a hard time keeping up with it. I did pretty well yesterday and today, but Friday, OH MY. I went about 300 calories over. it looks like the rest of the week I did ok. I don't know if there were bad things that I ate and didn't put down....I keep having to go back and do it...... I don't feel like I'm thinner. I weigh in on Tuesday.

I seem to be able to follow my eating plan pretty well now and eating the right things without having to over think it. But the occasional binges still get me..... I seem to be just going about my business eating what I should be eating without really even thinking very much about it. The day to day cravings haven't been hitting me too much and when they do, I have been able to substitute other things for bad snacks. The binges that get me now are when other people have food around. Like at work, or a restaurant or a party. On the day to day, I'm doing better. I wonder if that is true or if I am kidding myself.

Does it get easier over time? Am i handling stress better? Has the sunshine we've been having making me feel better? I don't know. But I do know that I am starting to see this as something to do over the long haul. I am seeing it as a life time pattern that I must have and not just a preset number of weeks or months. I am kind of seeing that my ability to follow the plan ebbs and flows in how I am feeling, what is going on in my life and how much motivation I have. I am seeing that it's okay to not be to motivated sometimes and that as long as you stay aware, don't beat yourself up and do the best you can at the moment, then you can get back on it when you are ready. This ebb and flow of losing weight is a new revelation for me, because everything and I mean everything you read and hear about diets is that you have to eat a certain way, never cheat and always stick to it. But that isn't how life is. Life ebbs and flows and sometimes you can be totally be great and sometimes you can't . And just because you may ebb and flow, you can't criticize yourself for not being persistent. You are persistent, because you keep trying. I 've been trying for years and so I think that is persistence. If I wasn't persistent, I wouldn't try at all!!!! I would just sit around and complain about being fat. My therapist once told me that sometimes to succeed you have to just keep trying. the self help gurus say that too. My doctor even told me once that I should try again. and when that failed, she said "Try Again". God Bless us all for trying!