MIDDLEROAD's CalorieKing blog
Tuesday, Sep 13 2011 - Oh Boy!
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I haven't been blogging, tracking or even going on the Calorie King website for a while. My mother took a turn for the worse, hospice was called and she left us on Aug. 27th. I was lucky enough to be with her when she went and did all I could to make her comfortable. However, I am being disturbed by thoughts of dying and feeling very melancholy. The only thing that helps is sitting for long periods of time and crocheting, knitting or doing other crafts.
My mom was sick with Alzheimers for about 10 years and I spent a lot of time with her. This last year was especially hard because she went downhill fast. We tried to keep her going right up to the end. At the end of July we even dragged her out to my house for a patio party. The poor thing was slumped sideways in her wheelchair and we pushed her hard to eat even though it was hard for her. But she got to hold her new great grandaughter, and I hope she liked that. Even 3 weeks before she died, my husband, father and the caregiver dragged her to the doctors office. It was then that the doctor insisted my father call in hospice. So, even up to the last three weeks, she was gotten up, dressed and fed at the kitchen table. It seemed a relief to her to be allowed to stay in the bed that hospice brought.
My mom was sick with Alzheimers for about 10 years and I spent a lot of time with her. This last year was especially hard because she went downhill fast. We tried to keep her going right up to the end. At the end of July we even dragged her out to my house for a patio party. The poor thing was slumped sideways in her wheelchair and we pushed her hard to eat even though it was hard for her. But she got to hold her new great grandaughter, and I hope she liked that. Even 3 weeks before she died, my husband, father and the caregiver dragged her to the doctors office. It was then that the doctor insisted my father call in hospice. So, even up to the last three weeks, she was gotten up, dressed and fed at the kitchen table. It seemed a relief to her to be allowed to stay in the bed that hospice brought.
8 comments so far.
8.
a decade ago
I love you! I'm just getting back to CK after an 1+ month hiatus. I'm going to start trying to log calories again. Even though I know what I SHOULD be eating, I've been having a lot of unhealthy snacks. I haven't gained weight but I haven't lost any either. So, I figure logging calories again will give me that kick-start to start losing again. Love you lots!
by JSPENNY
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a decade ago
Sorry to hear about your mother. This must be a hard time for you. I hope you come back to CK when you are ready. It is such a place to find support for all things in life.
Take care. - Betsy
by BETSYJANEY
6.
a decade ago
Your mother was in good hands. Sounds like her last years couldnt have been better because of yoyr love. You have been the caregiver for others, Now it's time to care for you. Let us know how we can support you. I hope to see you on the c25k thread. Peace be with you.
by JAAMETHYST
5.
a decade ago
Diane, I am sorry for your loss. She will be with you in your heart and memories...
by MAURABARTLEY
4.
a decade ago
so sorry for your loss. Peace to you and your family.
by IAMDONEBEINGFAT
3.
a decade ago
I am so sorry for your loss! You're in my thoughts!
by MRSDSB
2.
a decade ago
I am so sorry for your loss. Sounds like your Mom was in wonderful hands!
by SAXONHARP
1.
a decade ago
I am so sorry for your loss. I, too, was able to be with my mom when she passed away. I live 5 hrs in another state but was there since my dad passed away the week earlier and we saw mom taking a turn for the worse. It was an honor to be there during her last days on earth.
Go with your grief - it doesn't leave you for a long time. If sitting and crafting helps, so be it.
by WORKINGHARD2LOSE