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Tuesday, Jan 29 2008 - Day 2 of high frustration levels
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Warning: Pity party ahead!
Yesterday I only voiced my frustration about the food I'm eating - or not eating, as it were. But today - today is an entirely different story.
This morning I woke up to the sound of water. Not the "nice" little plunk, plunk you hear when there's a bit of a leak somewhere. No, this was rushing, gushing water. And unfortunately, I knew exactly where it was coming from. So while still in my jammies, I hunted around for a pair of shoes that I knew weren't going to make it to the other side of this little "adventure," I headed outside. There, in all of its glory, is my hose. My hose still connected to the faucet. My hose. The one that now has a giant hole it, spraying water all over my house, and creating a 3-4 inch pond in my backyard!
It would appear the water had never been shut off from the fall. And the only person I have to blame is myself. Even the dog poop I stepped in ... had I cleaned that up, it wouldn't have been a problem!
As I stood in the shower (thankfully it's COLD water that comes out of the outside faucet!), I started thinking about the last couple of months. Actually, started isn't really the right word. It's a constant in my mind. Three months ago our firm moved into a new suite. It took four people (that's just our team at the office) more than 15 months to get the suite designed and built. Want to guess who was the lead on everything? Yup, me. So after we move, I took, what I consider, a very well-earned vacation for two weeks. When I come back, I have 15 months worth of work that I haven't been able to get to piled there, and oh yeh! The move is done, so certainly I have time to work on ALL of these things people have left me.
In the midst of moving, we decided we would create a new website for the firm. While I didn't design it (meaning the artwork and layout), I was the coder on it. The first launch date we set? June 29, 2007. It JUST got launched this past weekend. While I realize everyone at the firm knew what I had going on, there's nothing like have three launch dates get blown past. So on my review I get a mark about setting realistic goals. Nice.
Yesterday was the first day both projects were considered by others as "put to bed." But there is still a ton of work to be done on the website. And they JUST DON'T GET IT! And that includes my marketing "boss." She's the one working with me on the site. Everyone thinks because the move is over, or because the site is up, that I have nothing to do. So I sent my marketing "boss" a to do list last night (after I had a chance to go through my e-mail and inbox). It was a freaking page long.
I guess the gushing water out of the hose this morning just kind of put me over the edge. And when I start to feel like that, I want to run. I want to hide. I want to be anyone but me. And sure, this is typically a time when a run to Coldstone would sound really great. I'm not even sure that sounds good right now.
I just want to throw my hands up, tell them all "I give," and go disappear for a while.
Yesterday I only voiced my frustration about the food I'm eating - or not eating, as it were. But today - today is an entirely different story.
This morning I woke up to the sound of water. Not the "nice" little plunk, plunk you hear when there's a bit of a leak somewhere. No, this was rushing, gushing water. And unfortunately, I knew exactly where it was coming from. So while still in my jammies, I hunted around for a pair of shoes that I knew weren't going to make it to the other side of this little "adventure," I headed outside. There, in all of its glory, is my hose. My hose still connected to the faucet. My hose. The one that now has a giant hole it, spraying water all over my house, and creating a 3-4 inch pond in my backyard!
It would appear the water had never been shut off from the fall. And the only person I have to blame is myself. Even the dog poop I stepped in ... had I cleaned that up, it wouldn't have been a problem!
As I stood in the shower (thankfully it's COLD water that comes out of the outside faucet!), I started thinking about the last couple of months. Actually, started isn't really the right word. It's a constant in my mind. Three months ago our firm moved into a new suite. It took four people (that's just our team at the office) more than 15 months to get the suite designed and built. Want to guess who was the lead on everything? Yup, me. So after we move, I took, what I consider, a very well-earned vacation for two weeks. When I come back, I have 15 months worth of work that I haven't been able to get to piled there, and oh yeh! The move is done, so certainly I have time to work on ALL of these things people have left me.
In the midst of moving, we decided we would create a new website for the firm. While I didn't design it (meaning the artwork and layout), I was the coder on it. The first launch date we set? June 29, 2007. It JUST got launched this past weekend. While I realize everyone at the firm knew what I had going on, there's nothing like have three launch dates get blown past. So on my review I get a mark about setting realistic goals. Nice.
Yesterday was the first day both projects were considered by others as "put to bed." But there is still a ton of work to be done on the website. And they JUST DON'T GET IT! And that includes my marketing "boss." She's the one working with me on the site. Everyone thinks because the move is over, or because the site is up, that I have nothing to do. So I sent my marketing "boss" a to do list last night (after I had a chance to go through my e-mail and inbox). It was a freaking page long.
I guess the gushing water out of the hose this morning just kind of put me over the edge. And when I start to feel like that, I want to run. I want to hide. I want to be anyone but me. And sure, this is typically a time when a run to Coldstone would sound really great. I'm not even sure that sounds good right now.
I just want to throw my hands up, tell them all "I give," and go disappear for a while.
1 comments so far.
1.
a decade ago
Bless your heart! You have a lot on your plate right now, that is for sure. Take a D E E P breath.......ok, let it out....it will be OK. I know that this moment is not a good one for you, but try to let it roll. In the big picture of your life, it is a small piece. You will get through this and become stronger for it. Keep your eye on the prize and know that you have done all you can, so cut yourself some slack. You are still a good person and will make it through. I know it is hard to see that now, but things will get better. Sending you hugs
:wave1: and encouragement. You would not be where you are if you were not a hard worker, so go easy on yourself.
:smile1:
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