My couple days of frustration have subsided somewhat. I think part of it is I've been able to knock a few things off my list at work. Just thinking about that list can make me go off my rocker.

And my food hasn't been too bad. Today was one of those days when I was REALLY close to my limit, which makes me wonder how when I actually do lose this weight, will I ever be able to eat enough? I guess time will tell. And I know that once I lose the weight, I won't need as much of it to keep this body going.

I did something today I haven't done in a long time. I actually considered what I was going to be eating for dinner and altered the rest of my food for the day. And it worked! I was actually pleasantly surprised. We have a place here called Pei Wei, which is a faster version of P.F. Changs - same food, some corporation, just faster (and cheaper!). When I looked up the nutritional value on CK, the calorie count wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I am certain, however, my sodium intake just went through the roof. I'm okay with that, at least for one night.

I think the other thing that turned me around was a decision that was made by a good friend of mine. Her picture should be in the dictionary for commitment-phobe. I'm going to Vegas this summer for a family wedding. So I asked my friend if she wanted to fly into Vegas, rent a convertible, and drive to southern California and stay there for a week. She said yes! I couldn't believe it - I nearly fell off my chair! It'll be a lot of fun to spend the time with her. We were going to try to catch a Padres game (she's a big baseball fan), but they won't be in town. Maybe we'll have to make a trip into LA to see the Angels play. I can't wait!

Unfortunately, another good friend of mine that lives in California won't be in town while I'm there. She'll be a million miles away. It won't be the same being in her state without her.

I guess what it really comes down to is I have a true and real goal to work toward. According to my "master plan" for my weight loss, I should be in the low 200s by the time this trip comes around. That means I will have lost nearly one-third of myself...and I'll fit in the airplane seat!! That, in and of itself, is incentive for me.

On another note, I'm trying to keep my head about me. I do freelance graphic design when I'm not at my "day" job, and have two really good clients. Well, I have 2-3 projects going on right now for both of them. It's kind of nuts. And usually when I feel like I've got too much on my plate, I kind of shut down. I'm trying to take it in stride...face one battle at a time, and work through it. I know I can do it. And the best part is, I know they trust me, and trust my judgement.