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Tuesday, Mar 4 2008 - The stuff finally hit the fan
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I'm beginning to learn that expectations suck. I had a really good food day yesterday. So this morning when I got on the scale, I expected to be happy with what I saw. Instead, I went up over a pound. I'm sure it's just a case of water retention, it's just not what I expected. So far I'm within my limits for the day, so maybe I'll be pleasantly surprised in the morning.
The sh*t really hit the fan today at work. This tension that's been between me and my marketing director has finally come to a head. She's angry, I'm angry. My boss's boss doesn't get it. And I'm stuck in the middle. I always seem to end up in the middle. I can't bring myself to stand up to my MD. If we're talking about policy, or how something should be done, I have no problem with it. But when it comes to fighting for what I want, I can't stand up to her.
Today while we were talking about a project my boss's boss wanted me a part of, she automatically decided that we would outsource it. No questions. No inquiries about whether or not I wanted the project. No consideration that my BB (boss's boss) had asked me to do it. And for the first time, I asked why. Why not me? Why her? She told me because the person we outsource to has more resources (maybe it's time for our firm to suck it up and get the resources?!?!) and she has more experience. I can't argue that point. But it comes back to the whole "how can I get a job when they want experience first, but I can't get a job to give me the experience?"
Extremely ticked off, I went to my boss and explained what was going on. She knows I'm in a hard place, and having a hard time with it - and really gave no input. Then I went to my BB. Now she's ticked. And then she went to one of our managing partners...and then the other. I feel like I've started WWIII.
When I spoke with my BB later, she said that if I have the drive, determination, and WANT to do the job, why not let me try? Why not push the limitations that have been put on me? Why not give me the chance to see what I can do?
Why can't my MD feel the same way? What more do I have to do to prove myself to her?
The sh*t really hit the fan today at work. This tension that's been between me and my marketing director has finally come to a head. She's angry, I'm angry. My boss's boss doesn't get it. And I'm stuck in the middle. I always seem to end up in the middle. I can't bring myself to stand up to my MD. If we're talking about policy, or how something should be done, I have no problem with it. But when it comes to fighting for what I want, I can't stand up to her.
Today while we were talking about a project my boss's boss wanted me a part of, she automatically decided that we would outsource it. No questions. No inquiries about whether or not I wanted the project. No consideration that my BB (boss's boss) had asked me to do it. And for the first time, I asked why. Why not me? Why her? She told me because the person we outsource to has more resources (maybe it's time for our firm to suck it up and get the resources?!?!) and she has more experience. I can't argue that point. But it comes back to the whole "how can I get a job when they want experience first, but I can't get a job to give me the experience?"
Extremely ticked off, I went to my boss and explained what was going on. She knows I'm in a hard place, and having a hard time with it - and really gave no input. Then I went to my BB. Now she's ticked. And then she went to one of our managing partners...and then the other. I feel like I've started WWIII.
When I spoke with my BB later, she said that if I have the drive, determination, and WANT to do the job, why not let me try? Why not push the limitations that have been put on me? Why not give me the chance to see what I can do?
Why can't my MD feel the same way? What more do I have to do to prove myself to her?
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