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Saturday, Mar 8 2008 - Emotional eating does it again!
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I'm finally coming to grips that I'm an emotional eater. For a while I tried to convince myself that I wasn't, but I am. When I got on the scale this morning, it went *UGH!* and the number read higher than it did yesterday.
I've had a really tough week, and I have to go back into the office today. There was an incident Tuesday between me and my Marketing Director (MD). A good 80-90% of my time at the office is spent working with her. In a very open, gut wrenching, lay all your cards out onto the table conversation, MD told me she didn't trust me when it came to my design work. My struggle continued with - if she doesn't trust me, how can we work together?
In addition to that, my MD is trying to pull rank over one of my managers. So a lot of this has more to do with them in a power struggle than what I have going on. I'm just stuck in the middle. And I hate it. And there is really nothing I can do about it. The economy in Michigan sucks. I feel like I'm... stuck. Stuck in a job, stuck in a house, stuck in a city...stuck.
So to help feel that ____ need (I'm not even sure what to call the need), I've been eating crap. We joke that at our firm, you'll gain the freshman 15. There is candy everywhere, and food is constantly being brought in. When I started working there almost 10 years ago, I weighed about 180-185. I've gained 100 pounds since I've been there. Wow - I've never really looked at it that way.
Last night when I got home I was starving and starting to get a headache from not eating. So I threw in a Boca burger to put on an English muffin. A little ketchup and I was good to go. And that should have sufficed! Not to mention, I was running low on calories due to a high caloric lunch I had. Instead, I spotted a box of popcorn chicken in my freezer. Some might have been okay, but I ate the whole dang box. With honey mustard. So I was over my calories yesterday by... at least 1,000.
I've got that I'm an emotional eater. I see it - I recognize it. Now when it starts to happen, I need to understand why and do something about it. Start writing in my blog or in the notes section. Just walk away from whatever it is I think I want. Get a glass of water. Go for a walk. Something.
I've had a really tough week, and I have to go back into the office today. There was an incident Tuesday between me and my Marketing Director (MD). A good 80-90% of my time at the office is spent working with her. In a very open, gut wrenching, lay all your cards out onto the table conversation, MD told me she didn't trust me when it came to my design work. My struggle continued with - if she doesn't trust me, how can we work together?
In addition to that, my MD is trying to pull rank over one of my managers. So a lot of this has more to do with them in a power struggle than what I have going on. I'm just stuck in the middle. And I hate it. And there is really nothing I can do about it. The economy in Michigan sucks. I feel like I'm... stuck. Stuck in a job, stuck in a house, stuck in a city...stuck.
So to help feel that ____ need (I'm not even sure what to call the need), I've been eating crap. We joke that at our firm, you'll gain the freshman 15. There is candy everywhere, and food is constantly being brought in. When I started working there almost 10 years ago, I weighed about 180-185. I've gained 100 pounds since I've been there. Wow - I've never really looked at it that way.
Last night when I got home I was starving and starting to get a headache from not eating. So I threw in a Boca burger to put on an English muffin. A little ketchup and I was good to go. And that should have sufficed! Not to mention, I was running low on calories due to a high caloric lunch I had. Instead, I spotted a box of popcorn chicken in my freezer. Some might have been okay, but I ate the whole dang box. With honey mustard. So I was over my calories yesterday by... at least 1,000.
I've got that I'm an emotional eater. I see it - I recognize it. Now when it starts to happen, I need to understand why and do something about it. Start writing in my blog or in the notes section. Just walk away from whatever it is I think I want. Get a glass of water. Go for a walk. Something.
3 comments so far.
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a decade ago
You're probably also stuck in snow and it's about to make all us midwesterners nuts. hmmm...work situation is tough, but as you pointed out, it probably has more to do with what's going on with her and your manager. You're in a good spot to paste that smile on, do your best work and fly under the radar as much as possible. ...and emotional eating...the hardest kind! You can overcome it, though!
by GTHEISEN
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a decade ago
Emotional eating is my biggest problem also. I think blogging has helped me a lot, I tell myself I don't need to eat anything because I will write about the problem later and then I will feel better. Sometimes I don't even write about the stress in my blog because by the time I get to it I have forgotten it.
by MEYDEE
1.
a decade ago
Emotional eating is a tough one (know this from experience!). Taking a walk does help me, as does talking with a friend or blogging. Something that helps get whatever it is out, but out of reach of the refrigerator. Hang in there!
by VEGGIRL1964