I had such good plans yesterday. My food diary was perfectly planned right down to the last calorie. I was even adjusting well to the circumstances of the day, until the afternoon hit. ( see yesterday's blog to see what was going on and why my day had been so hectic ). Then it hit, one, two, low blow sugars in a row, headaches, muscle tensions, and of course hunger without any spare calories left to quench the flame. I had to eat something, that was a given. So, I knew I was going to surpass my calorie count. The first low I handled like a pro only using 80 cals. and waiting that 15 minutes. Still low could wait a little while and see if I was going to need more... a few hours latter the old bg dropped again... and my headache wasn't improving...can you guess what I did...not what I was suppose to...You guesses it. That pudding that was sitting in the frig for my husband to eat while he was sick with the flu looked really good ( and I'm not suppose to ear milk products!). I started to eat it. I gobbled down about a 1/2-3/4 cup then realized I better stop. That's probably enough sugar,but I'm still hungry. I went for some sugar free pudding now, then some marshmallows since it was time to medicate the dogs. I figured by this time I needed some protein, why not by this time I was actually going to have to take some insulin. I reached into the frig and ate two very small pieces of my pizza that I had left over from the other night. Finally satisfied I stopped the binge. I sat down and prayed to my Father in heaven thanking Him that this day was now over. I ask for the grace to start anew. like I heard from so many of you and realized my humanity is so weak when put under certain trials. Humbled, I realized that this diet thing is not so easy and will need constant prayer and vigilance if I am to win this battle. Thus I learned from others who have gone before me, that it ain't that easy, but with support, it gets easier.
See ya Latter