You ever wonder who is worse at sabotaging your diet, you or your friends, family or life's situations? I have decided the real answer to that question is myself. What is the saying, " I am the captain of my ship, the master of my soul." Who really has control over what goes in my mouth? Life's circumstances, or me? For what it's worth, people who are reading this blog know that I have been under much sadness and stress this week as I am nursing my sick dog, Gambit. Several times I have succumbed to emotional eating habits to comfort mt agony as I deal with the pain of possibly losing this little fella. Although I haven't gone over board in eating like I would have in years past, I still see the signs of sabotage lurking around the conner as I realize how I still deal with emotional issues. I let still let food comfort me even after I have been taught not too. I call this self sabotage if I don't make the conscious decision to stop it. If I don't stop it, I won't conquer the food problem. I must grow even in the hard times. Now people, please don't pamper me either. Every one of us like children must learn this lessen at some time. This week has been my tutor. We here at CK are so wonderful about supporting each other when we fall off the wagon especially during the hard times that we sometimes forget that at sometimes we have to be like the little toddler who learns not to put his hand on the hot oven. So, today, when the vet said we are going to test Gambit for cancer tomorrow, I did not run to food for comfort. I got struggled with my emotions for a moment, then went and hugged my little one. He's in God's hands to begin with. Food would not help matters to begin with. I will not sabotage my diet, it will not help how I feel right now anyway. I am learning I am in control and no one else. Sorry if I came across a little strong today. I'm full of raw emotion today. It's hard to see someone or even an animal you love hurt like this. This is not fun to be sure.
On a bright spot Bess cheered me up today with a phone call. Thanks Bess. It was good to hear from you and know you are better. I'll be calling her back for sure!!!!! Bess sounds sooooo much like a friend of mine from Mineral Wells, Texas. It turns out she doesn't live that far from there. Accents!!!!
The DietBlog had some interesting info on chicken today if you get a chance to read their information. It is about how there is added water, sugar, and even seaweed extract in some " natural chicken". Interesting article.
Bought some Mandarin Oranges today. They are small. I was wondering what size really constitutes a serving. These guys are small. I'm going to weight them and see if I can get any idea as to what size Mandarin oranges I have. Anybody ever eat the fresh ones?
See ya all latter.