The sun rises and the Lord comforts giving each day a new breath. I find the pain of Friday being easier to take, although I am reminded of how fragile life is. Last night I received word that nephew's wife's mother passed away after a missed diagnoses by the hospital she had been going to for three months missed her cancer. Yes, she had cancer near her heart and these doctors just thought she had heart problem and missed the fact there was cancer in her body. By the time they found the cancer, it was too late.It took taking her into the big city and going to a good hospital with regular practices for her family to find out what was really her problem. Only it was too late. The cancer had spread into her heart. My nephew's wife was beside herself as are their children. Wow, it really has shook up my husband's side of the family too. That very hospital miss diagnoses my brother-in-law this past Nov. when he went in with too much calcium in his blood from liver problems due to his cancer. Nearly killed him too. I don't think much of this small time hospital right now. When I talked to Steph, we both agreed that the thing she could for her children was not to be bitter and to forgive the hospital. I agreed because this is a life lesson that her kids needed to learn and she would need to do in order to move on. It wouldn't do ant body any good to try and prove negligence at this point. Forgiveness may be hard to do, but it's not impossible with God's grace and mercy helping you. There is such freedom when you are able to forgive too. What a life lessen that Val and Brandon will learn as their Mom and Dad make this walk.
I somehow managed to lose weight this week despite what I went through. Laura's auto pilot idea has been working for me lately. I've just my diet plan into auto pilot even though my heart has not been into lately. I tried a new recipe last night, that cheered me up some last night. It even had pasta in it! I will share it in the forum today. I want to thank everyone for helping me out through all that I've been through these past few weeks. It is really helping.
This week I have been able to get back to walking and stretching. I haven't made it to the gym, but it's been so nice outside that I have taken my walks outside. That won't last long down here. It gets muggy, hot, and humid down here quick. Then there's those pesky mosquitoes and love bugs to fight.
I saw my psych doctor yesterday. No getting off the antidepressant for while longer. Rats! I was doing so good I thought he would let me off, but then I told him how I felt about losing my dog and the wedding. He said losing an animal that was close can be like losing a loved on. Where have I heard that before (Sharon!). The wedding is no problem. I have no pressures for it. All I have to do is provide money and address. Oh, I have to do a shower and a reception down here in Texas. No big deal. His mother is actually stuck with most of the wedding stuff. Anyway, I guess I will look forward to trying to get off the stuff in 6 months or so. He did notice my weight loss. while I was there I met a patient who was a diabetic who talked about weight loss.Opening here folks...So we talked and I gave her my numbers and she was amazed that changing your diet could make that much difference on your blood sugar and cholesterol!!!!! I will be talking to her some more. It is encouraging to encourage others. It also makes me want to work harder for myself. I think of Nadine every time I go for a walk. Her exercising everyday encourages me to get out there even if I am in pain that day and go for that walk. You see, we encourage each other by setting our own standards and following them then letting people see the results. So girls and guys, go for. Be that example for others to follow. Inspire others by your results, they will follow in your footsteps.
One final word I would like to say. I now have 48 pounds left to lose!!!!!!!!!! It doesn't sound so like so much when you consider that I have already lost 72 pounds. I still look chubby in my opinion at 168 pounds being five feet tall, but I feel skinny. I don't know how long this will take me, but I'm actually getting excited now. I wouldn't allow myself for a long time because I didn't think I could pull this off especially since exercise is such a feat for me. Look guys, if I can do it, then anybody can. Look at all the obstacles I have: health problems, unable to exercise like normal folk, food limitations, money limits ( don't we all ). I needed the support like everyone else. What is the saying, no man is an island...can't really remember that saying, but I think everyone knows what I'm trying to say. Thanks