Yep, daughter just forgot to ask me to babysit the dog this weekend and it wasn't me forgetting that I had a babysitting job this weekend. Still, I ended up with an extra canine for the weekend and it was a ruff weekend. I love their dog, but my little dog doesn't and likes to remind of us of the fact. They are learning to get a long a lot better now since this is not the first time we have put the two of them together. Still, Xena would rather Jax just disappear at at times. Saturday we went to a church dinner for our small group and Sunday we went to a triathlon and the car show. I got in a lot of walking Sunday to add to my work out on Saturday to make for a very tired body today. Today has been a rest day and laundry day and not much else. Yep, hubby wanted me to use my scooter for the car show and I even started to, but the scooter acted up and we took it back to the car. I kept telling him I could do the car show on my own legs, but he was worried I could not. I proved to him I could even though towards the end I felt my SI joint tighten up a little. Did the car show and kept up with hubby and was mighty proud of it. When I got home I found my self sleep as everything. Up till then my diet had been really good. I woke to the smell of pizza. Yep, you guessed it, hubby had bought pizza for dinner. What was I to do. So, it became a maintenance day. Glad I had done all that walking between the lunch and the pizza. I had planned on making a meatloaf for dinner that night but had slept past dinner time and hubby went out and got the pizza. Now he's usually pretty good about making some kind of dinner during times like this, but he was tired too. I guess we both slipped Sunday after our long weekend. Oh, and watching daughter's dog is like a toddler. Her dog is hyper active compared to mine. He wants to play all the time. Makes me know how it feels to have a certain kind of breed of dog.
I have stayed the same weight three weeks in a row now. Considering what I have been through I am lucky. I have traveled, had to eat out, go to dinners, and binged. This does not bode well for a diet. Ah, it's a new week and I can start a fresh. For some reason I was hungry all last week. DO you ever have a week where you are hungry. I know a lot of women have weeks like that before their cycles, but I don't have those anymore, so I don't know what was going on last week with me. It could have been the exercise that I was doing, who knows. Ever so often I have hungry weeks and my body just wants food. Last week that food week came right after a doctor of mine made me lose so,e of my confidence in what I have been doing all this time. I want to get down to at least 128-130. When your doctor tells you to quit losing weight it does kind of hit you for a loop. I'm still a little shocked at that. I think maybe now I'm getting a little mad thinking about it. Who ever thinks about going on a diet and stopping 2/3 of the way from the finish line? That would be, well stupid if you thought about it. Why would anyone go put themselves through everything we do and not finish the the job. I did that once. I lost all my weight and didn't learn how to maintain it to end up right back where I am now. I am not going to do it again. I am going to lose my weight and then learn how to maintain it with help. So, I may be here a while. When I can do what Jarrod has done and maintain my weight for ten years, then I will consider myself a success.
My first goal is to get the weight off. The second goal will be to strengthen my core muscles and walk longer distances. Third will be to finally get of off of insulin if possible. I see this as a three to five year plan because it time to build back muscles and lose weight. I am one year into my plan now and so far so good. If there is a lesson to be learned today, don't always expect your doctor to go along with your plan, well not all of your doctors. I will make a believer out of ALL of my doctors by the time those five years is up. Even my Endocrinologist well have to admit he was wrong about me stopping at 150 when this is all and done with. Now, my friend, it's up to you all when I get down to remind me of my own words, because I know I will have down days, or down weeks like these past few weeks. Perseverance is my motto now as I continue on these last 30 pounds or more. I will persevere. This weight will come off. I can do it. I have done it before. I will do it. I will maintain.
Thanks for listening tonight as I refocus mu mind on my task.