Have you ever asked yourself what is normal ? Do I eat a normal amount of food ? Do I respond normally to food ? I used to think I did until I read the Beck Diet Solution and realized that I had a bunch of abnormal thinking processes towards food. My biggest problem I have to deal with is denial. I still find myself in denial over the fact that I have a problem with over eating at night and eating extra munchies after all my calories are gone for the day. I can talk myself into any excuse for needing those extra calories to even pretending I didn't eat them. Now that is real denial ! Sure, I have managed to maintain my weight, an even lose a few pounds these past few months, but that doesn't put me in the clear for this mental problem I need to over come which is not normal. Normal would be not eating when one is hungry. Normal has been so far out of my way of life and thinking that I have made normal, not normal. This is what I therefor strive for in these last months or years of my diet, to make normal become part of my daily life.
On my end, things are back to normal, can't say that about every one who lives here in the city, but that is another topic. The dog and I went walking last night and met some neighbors who were enjoying the cooler weather. We all have enjoyed the fall like temperatures since Ike. One of my neighbors who hadn't seen me in a couple of weeks almost didn't recognize me until I got closer to her. Then as I walked up to her she realized it was me and said " Wow, you look great ! " It was nice to be complemented on my hard work. Her mom had also been on a diet and they were eating right so they knew about diet and lifestyle change and talked a little about that with me. We talked a little about that as a little dog ran up to us. It was loose and so we went off together to find it's owner. Thankfully we found it's owner.
Anyway, It was nice to have someone recognize my efforts !
Nothing much new going on today. Talk to you all latter.