It's been hard to get back on track lately, but I started back on my diet reluctantly. I had been maintaining my weight alright for the past three months right between 148-150. I felt myself getting a little out of control and in need of some discipline. There are some mental errors I still struggle with as well as some temptations that are constantly bothering me. I don't know if these will be life long temptations or if they will weaken over time. It's only been 18 months since I started this journey and I don't know too many people other than you all in which to ask what to expect over the long haul. All I know is that the last pounds and maintenance might be even harder than losing the first 2/3 of your weight. After I hit the plateau stage I got real discouraged and have had trouble deciding if I want to lose these last 12 - 15 pounds. I decided that I need to for health reasons even if it means I will have to buy new pants and undies if I succeed. I will just hate that since I just had to go shopping last September and dish out money on new clothes since I didn't have anything that fit. Yea, I am getting real tired of having to re-fit myself every time I change sizes. What once was a thrill is now a a dread in the pocket book to my loving husband. He is proud of my work ethic but is getting a little tired of the cost. That could be my fault since I probably over bought on a few sizes the last time. Oh well, I really under estimated the fact that I would really lose weight. I DIDN'T believe in myself enough or in the " ONE " who was giving me the power to do all of this. And , yes, I've been down a little as of late. Don't really know why either. It happens to me once in a while. That's unfortunately why I am on medication. Don't worry about me. Nothing is going on with me that a little rest won't solve. I'll be fine in a few weeks when it blows over. It seems to come and goes in cycles. Walking with my dog is the best medicine and talking to you all help a lot.
I've whittled down which TV shows I am going to watch from that large list I had. Naturally, that was too many shows to keep up with and do all the things that I need to do. I will catch some of the shows when they play during the summer or come out on DVD. I did catch Marjorie's " The Mentalist ". Solid performance by the star of the show. It's a serious " Psych ". Greys had one of it's best episodes ever and Ugly Betty was a real tear jerker. Has anyone noticed how many characters have been killed off in the past couple of years when their actors have left the shows ? CSI, ER, Star Gate, Lost, got any more ?
Xena, the wonder dog now knows the word " walk " so well. All I have to do is spell it now and she runs to the door. It is getting cooler here so we are able to get out and walk again. She loves this. She is getting really good walking on the leash thanks to the tips Amy gave me. She even is learning some tricks like how to high five me with her left paw when I signal it ,and then with her right paw when I signal for the it. Off to make some real beef hamburgers tonight out of Laura's Lean Beef. I saute' red peppers, red onion, garlic in a little olive oil, and mix that in the meat with some Steak Seasoning from the Salt Grass Steak House. Then I make 3 oz patties for hubby to to grill. ( 1/2 cup will come out to 3 oz ).