Yesterday in my Celebrate recovery class we talked about "Relapse". You know, for anyone who has an eating problem this is were you go off the wagon and binge, over eat, lose control, or gain your weight back in big proportions after having lost it. The lesson was why do we relapse. The answer was Complacency. We get too comfortable with were we are at to go through the program. The pain is not great enough any more to motivate us, we get prideful in our accomplishments, we get lazy, we think we can do it on our own and isolate our selves from our support group. These are just some of the reasons why food addicts as will drug and alcohol addicts can relapse. Boy, did I see myself in that category big time. I have had a struggle with pride and laziness, and MOTIVATION big time. I have gotten lazy with my support group here at CK, and yes I have found my struggle to maintain a little harder when I did so. So, yes, these are the hard cruel facts, we need each other as well as we need to realize that this struggle can be and might be a lifetime of recovery. I am grateful I have a Lord who is in the business of healing my inner person which is the root of most of my struggles to begin with.
Last week I managed to exercise 6 of 7 days ! This is good for me. Today was my off day from exercise. I gave my body a rest day which was good. I usually need a physical an emotional day of rest and love doing it on Mondays. My favorite thing to do is to curl up in my chair with the dog and catch up on my recorded shows. I also took a nap too. Tomorrow I will take hubby in for his stomach test which he gets every year. I for get the technical name for it but they have to put him under so its a surgical procedure which means he will be in lala land for a while. Talk to everyone tomorrow.