I have looked at my chart and realized over all in the past six months I have maintained my weight around 150 for the past six months. Granted, I have been as low as 145 and am now 149. My goal weight is 135. I know I have yet to really go back and get on a consistent diet to lose these last pounds, but the good news is when I have put on a few pounds, I have been able to get those off immediately and get back down to my average. I am learning my behavior still needs to be worked on because I still have a lot of the old me still in me. This is why I have yet to be able to go back to my diet and finish the diet. I know I will have to finish the diet and get rid of those last pounds eventually, but for now I am trying to get rid of my mental obstacles which seem to sabotage my efforts. The positive thing I can say about myself is that I haven't gained all my weight back as in years past. Oh, I can feel the struggle to go back to my old ways right now big time. This time I have a support group and a husband who is aware of what I am going through who is helping me and giving me support. My body is also fighting with me. Every time I start to eat poorly, it gets an upset stomach and lets me know the old ways are unacceptable.
I also have discovered exercise, even though it is a bit painful at times because of my bodies limitations now. Without exercise I get depressed, can't maintain my weight, feel out of control and in general life seems to not be as full. My aches and pains seem to also get worse if I don't move and stretch out on a weekly basis too. So there must be some kind of movement in my life to keep the pain down even though I experience pain when I do exercise. Ironic isn't it.
Well, that's were I stand today. I am struggling, but I know it will always be a struggle with me. I don't mind though. I know I have come a long way and still have more to tackle. I won't give up. I realize this is process that will take time. I hope everyone who is going through this journey doesn't give up but takes the time to look back like I have here today and see that the journey is a process of time, something we all have plenty of. Have a good day.