I've had a few bad days adjusted to our new financial diet emotionally. Things are working out, but that hasn't kept me from having a few days were I wanted to just " emotionally " hide within myself. Yesterday I realized I was beginning to creep back into that dark place and had better get myself up and go exercise and get out of the house. So, I took the dog for a walk and kept reminding myself I have worked too hard to go back to where I came from, money problems or not. I will not eat through my problems like I have before. I had a bad couple of days of being angry at my husband, but I do forgive him and will move on from here. He asked for my forgiveness and we both are going to financial counseling. He is even going to to my 12 step program which offers help in this area as well. Our marriage is going to be stronger as well as our diets. HUbby is now on my diet program as well. He even went to the gym with me Sat. and exercised ! Things are changing around here. Our relationship is changing for the better in fact since he confessed he made this mistake in our finances and asked my forgiveness. I knew I needed help in this area along with my food addiction years ago and begged him to to go with me to get help. Stubborn man thought it was just my problem. Now, he admits it he had a problem to. All this time it was a wifie problem !!!!! When I started mt diet journey two years ago, I heard this quite voice from the Lord tell me that it was not just a food diet tat He was going to work with me on but a financial one too. So, I always new this day would come. It still hit me hard when this day finally came. Just like the first time I aw how much food 1300 calories really is ! Yesterday, I experienced a little party even though I really had nothing to feel sorry for myself about. I just told you all so many wonderful things that has taken place within my marriage these past few days that I should be jumping up for joy, and I have. What wife wouldn't be joyous that her husband finally saw the light and even apologized to her ! OK, so I had a moment of being selfish... Now that that's over I am ready to face the consequences of a lifestyle where we have not budgeted our money correctly. No excuses. Like over eating, You pay for it one way or the other. It will take a while to get out of this mess just like it has taken a while to lose the weight. No quick solutions that I know of here. Although, we are meeting with a lawyer next week to go over our options. I am now focusing my energy on how to cook healthy meals on a tight budget, something this foodie has never had to do. I have always had free reign in the grocery store. That won't be the case any more. It will be a challenge. I hope I am up for it. Your prayers an encouragement will be appreciated. Thanks for listening to this delicate subject. It's not about weight loss, but it does indeed related to my addictive personality. Over the months I will talk about this. Over spending and over eating were symptoms of something deep within me. As I healed from the root cause, I found staying on the diet much easier. I'm sure many of you have similar stories. Well, the dog is whining at the door because it is that time of day when she knows it is time for her walk, so I have to go. Talk to you all latter. Peace.