MOUGHI's CalorieKing blog
Wednesday, Apr 1 2009 - logging
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I was an avid food logger when on my initial diet and found that it really works. When I went off my weight loss diet and just decided to maintain for a while I stopped logging. I could not for the life of me find within myself to go back on my diet. Well, now after a bout of depression and a ten pound weight gain, I have to force myself to get back to dieting and logging. MY eating is still healthy over all. I just started eating extra at night due to feeling emotional bad and craving foods I had given up like chocolate and sweets. Thankfully my diabetes is still under control, but will not be if I continue down this path. I also do not have any larger clothes to go into if I were to get any larger than a size 18 because I gave away my size 2os and 22s as a motivation to keep me from thinking there was a going back. 
Needless to say I still fit into my size 18s, but they are getting a little snug and are telling me I must do something. Thankfully, my husband has convinced me I should keep my gym membership as well since I was about to give it up due to financial reasons. He says we have enough in our budget to keep the 35.00 a month membership and that I really need to go in order to keep my health up. Although I still feel guilty about keeping it when I think we could use the money for other basic needs. I must say, between fighting my eating disorder, depression, financial problems, and getting back on my diet, this has been a tough month for me. I have been truly humbled this month as to how hard it is to keep the weight off. Yet, I have done it before, ( two times ) and I suppose I will manage to do it again.
Yesterday I helped my daughter take a dog she found to an animal rescue. It was a cocker spaniel puppy that had gotten out and was wondering around in the streets of her neighborhood. She put up signs for a few days, but did not find the owners. I felt she could have put up more signs around her neighborhood, but told her the next best thing would be to put the dog in a shelter where the owners might possibly go look for it. So I kept the dog over night and took it to the best shelter closest to her the next day. This shelter has the highest rate of placing dogs in the area. Since it is a puppy and a pure bred, it is possible it will go to a rescue if not claimed by it's owners in a week. It was a very loving dog. I would have loved to have kept it,but my dog does not want another dog in the house with it. Last year after losing Gambit, she has made it known, that strange dogs in her house are not welcome. Perhaps a small dog would be ok since she gets along with the two small neighbor dogs now. even though my little Xena has taken over the house, I still miss having two dogs in the house. When I was at the shelter I saw two small dogs that my heart melted for, then I thought of my Xena and whether she would like me bring another dog home with me. Xena won out and came home without one of those little dogs.
Needless to say I still fit into my size 18s, but they are getting a little snug and are telling me I must do something. Thankfully, my husband has convinced me I should keep my gym membership as well since I was about to give it up due to financial reasons. He says we have enough in our budget to keep the 35.00 a month membership and that I really need to go in order to keep my health up. Although I still feel guilty about keeping it when I think we could use the money for other basic needs. I must say, between fighting my eating disorder, depression, financial problems, and getting back on my diet, this has been a tough month for me. I have been truly humbled this month as to how hard it is to keep the weight off. Yet, I have done it before, ( two times ) and I suppose I will manage to do it again. Yesterday I helped my daughter take a dog she found to an animal rescue. It was a cocker spaniel puppy that had gotten out and was wondering around in the streets of her neighborhood. She put up signs for a few days, but did not find the owners. I felt she could have put up more signs around her neighborhood, but told her the next best thing would be to put the dog in a shelter where the owners might possibly go look for it. So I kept the dog over night and took it to the best shelter closest to her the next day. This shelter has the highest rate of placing dogs in the area. Since it is a puppy and a pure bred, it is possible it will go to a rescue if not claimed by it's owners in a week. It was a very loving dog. I would have loved to have kept it,but my dog does not want another dog in the house with it. Last year after losing Gambit, she has made it known, that strange dogs in her house are not welcome. Perhaps a small dog would be ok since she gets along with the two small neighbor dogs now. even though my little Xena has taken over the house, I still miss having two dogs in the house. When I was at the shelter I saw two small dogs that my heart melted for, then I thought of my Xena and whether she would like me bring another dog home with me. Xena won out and came home without one of those little dogs.
7 comments so far.
7.
a decade ago
I found a dog Friday morning out roaming. I felt so bad for her and would have taken her home with me, but my dog wasn't exactly being too welcoming. I ended up giving her a cup of food so I could get the number on her collar. Turns out she had a Humane Society tag with a license number so I reported her whereabouts to them and knew they'd do something to find the owner.
by MARJORIEO
6.
a decade ago
Hey - we are all in the same LOSING boat together, and we just have to keep rowing.
:rock1:
Suggestion 1 - along with your gym membership - go back to the CK program and re-work it. Even though you think that you "Know it all", there are some ideas and tips that don't always get through those brain cells and stay. I went over them again the other day - and found 2 or three things.
Suggestion 2 - I also bought a new wonderful food scale that weighs in 1/2 a dozen different units and logging has become a pleasure instead of a chore! Treat yourself to something like that to make your logging easier.
Suggestion 3 - Keep blogging and that way you get encouragement. Look at CK as your vast clan of dieting buddies that you can't do without.
REMEMBER you HAVE done it and you can DO IT AGAIN along with all of us.
Kel
by KELOSE
5.
a decade ago
Good for you for nipping it before it became more...keep that gym membership!!!! You can find other ways to save $35 a month, and you need it for your health, you know you do!
by NMA5632
4.
a decade ago
Iory, I'm like you. I had lost 80 pounds, thought I had it all under control and then slowly regained 90 pounds. I never thought it would happen to me. We cannot afford to get careless even when we lose all our weight. You look magnificent and I know you will not give up this time. I know I'm not going to give up this time either.
by MUSICALMARGARET
3.
a decade ago
You deserve that gym membership! I'm glad you're getting control of your situation and getting back on track.
by CATWALKER
2.
a decade ago
Even though you are cutting back you have to keep your health in mind, I am glad your husband talked you into keeping the membership. As for your daughter putting up more signs, I think that if someone was really missing the little guy THEY would have went through the expense and time of putting up signs and such. If one of my dogs went missing I would be handing out flyers on every house in the area!! You did the right thing, good for you for taking the scared lost little guy in until you could get him into the shelter.
by TDBHALL
1.
a decade ago
I'm all for cutting back the non-necessities but $35 a month isn't that much (barely > $1 a day) and it makes a difference between how good you feel everyday, then that is worth it I think. Maybe you could bring Xena in to see if she would find a mate she'd like? It seems that the economy is affecting our pet kingdom too. People can't afford pets so they let them go or leave them behind and don't consider that they can't take care of themselves. It really makes me sad.
by MARJORIEO