MOUGHI's CalorieKing blog
Tuesday, May 5 2009 - caught myself struggling
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I caught myself struggling with food lately because I have had this innate desire to want to eat without consequences. This won't work of course and hasn't as the scale has shown. In the Beck book she goes into this when she talks about how life isn't fair for some of us who have to watch what we eat. It becomes a mental attitude more than the food itself. I eat the right things when it comes down to it now. I just want to eat more than my calorie count will allow or my exercise level is adjusted to right now. I love food and love or would love to try everything God made out there. Reality !!!!!!!!! My body is not one that can do that. I have a short stocky body that will put on weight quicker than you can snap your fingers and exercise is not easy for me now days, so counting calories and having to watch what I eat will always have to be a part of my life now. Unfortunately, I watch other people live their life with abandonment and get a little envious once in a while then find myself trying to live my life like them without even realizing I am doing it. The minute I let down my guard I fall into the trap. Once I have gained a pound or two I find myself lamenting and realizing that life isn't fair and sometimes feeling sorry for myself. Then I say to myself, " Get a hold of yourself Girl ." Life is fair because you have been blessed with the knowledge, skills, and support group that understands your situation. You are not alone in this predicament. And, if others were more honest with themselves, there would be a lot more people joining you in your quest. So, shake that pity party off and realize that if you lived by God's best for you, you will be MOST HAPPY and not sad. In fact there will be great joy in following this plan you have set forth for yourself and not the anxiety you are feeling. That anxiety and self pity is doubt. Doubt about this being the best life for you. When I thought about this I wondered why I ever had those feelings of wanting to be like others. Why would I want second best or to be like others when I could have God's best for my life and reap the rewards of that best. OK, now I have to get back to that best plan and realize that God's ways are and always have been in my best interest. He wants me healthy and able to perform at my best. Over eating is not taking care of this body, and the Bible talks about taking care of this temple as being pleasing to Him. He promised to help me, so I am asking him for that divine help in this matter because there are some things I don't think I can do on my own. ( like continue month after month without giving up ). Today, as I have talked things through with my Lord about my feelings, I have found this peace that I needed. I finally feel good about myself and sticking with it. I even logged my food today and found the calories for a special treat. ( 1/2 cup of Stouffer's mac. and cheese ).
Yesterday I was able to get out and walk a mile and a half with the dogs. I would have gone to the gym today but my car is still not fixed yet. Hubby hasn't quite figured out what needs to be replaced to make it work yet. Hope he figures this one out real quick. In the mean time, I can walk the neighborhood. It is getting hot here now, so walking in the morn or late evening is the only option, but you have to put on mosquito spray first. Last night as I was walking the dogs I took a spray bottle with me so I could squirt Callie when ever we came across other dogs. She barks at them and I have been trying to train her not to go crazy around other dogs. So, the first dog we came up to as expected she goes crazy. I tell her no get down on me knees and put my hand on her mouth. The next dog I use the squirt bottle and the next. This goes for people too, but with them we stop and say hello and I introduce the dogs and Callie to them and give them a treat to give to her. She begins to figure out people and treats go together. No barking when people come up, well not as much. Xena learned this in walk. Callie will take a while because she is a shelter dog and a dachshund mix. Ok, then on the way home I figure she is going to get really tested because I see coming toward us two bid Great Danes and an over sized Rotty being walked by a couple. I will be surprised if she DOESN'T bark, but she surprises me and only lets out a gruff in her throat. I praise her big time. Finally, I thought I am making progress. We'll see. One more dog to get by between us and home, a little Pomie, feisty thing giving it's owner trouble too. Callie walked right by this dog following Xena's lead. Whew, I gave her praise and a treat ! I bet ya everything she did last night will be forgotten on the next walk which will be tomorrow night.
Yesterday I was able to get out and walk a mile and a half with the dogs. I would have gone to the gym today but my car is still not fixed yet. Hubby hasn't quite figured out what needs to be replaced to make it work yet. Hope he figures this one out real quick. In the mean time, I can walk the neighborhood. It is getting hot here now, so walking in the morn or late evening is the only option, but you have to put on mosquito spray first. Last night as I was walking the dogs I took a spray bottle with me so I could squirt Callie when ever we came across other dogs. She barks at them and I have been trying to train her not to go crazy around other dogs. So, the first dog we came up to as expected she goes crazy. I tell her no get down on me knees and put my hand on her mouth. The next dog I use the squirt bottle and the next. This goes for people too, but with them we stop and say hello and I introduce the dogs and Callie to them and give them a treat to give to her. She begins to figure out people and treats go together. No barking when people come up, well not as much. Xena learned this in walk. Callie will take a while because she is a shelter dog and a dachshund mix. Ok, then on the way home I figure she is going to get really tested because I see coming toward us two bid Great Danes and an over sized Rotty being walked by a couple. I will be surprised if she DOESN'T bark, but she surprises me and only lets out a gruff in her throat. I praise her big time. Finally, I thought I am making progress. We'll see. One more dog to get by between us and home, a little Pomie, feisty thing giving it's owner trouble too. Callie walked right by this dog following Xena's lead. Whew, I gave her praise and a treat ! I bet ya everything she did last night will be forgotten on the next walk which will be tomorrow night.
8 comments so far.
8.
a decade ago
I so understand your feelings. Thanks for stopping by my blog and sharing. It is so important that we get back to recording what we eat. I'm proud of you for recognizing the slips and getting back on track. I'm proud of me too! We're going to do this! Love the dog walking story -- good job training!
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by RECRE8SUZ
7.
a decade ago
I'm sorry that eating continues to be a problem for you. For you, for me, and practically everyone else writing here. It's a sticky wicket, hard to figure out, nail down, and eradicate. But you are taking good steps, and your faith seems a great help. I stood in front of my old friend/enemy, the office vending machine the other day, and thought to myself, "Why are you tormenting yourself with this?" I really felt compassion for myself, which was a first.
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I have been sick for a week and a half with a really bad cold and flu, which my 30-something doctor says "Nah, it isn't swine flu," so I take his word for it. He doesn't believe in dispensing antibiotics freely, so...
I got good results with a Prevention diet program, but first had problems with the online program, then got sick, but I have fridge stocked with protein and want to go with their meal plans to try to cut way back on carbs, which I could eat exclusively.
by CATWALKER
6.
a decade ago
I'm sorry that eating continues to be a problem for you. For you, for me, and practically everyone else writing here. It's a sticky wicket, hard to figure out, nail down, and eradicate. But you are taking good steps, and your faith seems a great help. I stood in front of my old friend/enemy, the office vending machine the other day, and thought to myself, "Why are you tormenting yourself with this?" I really felt compassion for myself, which was a first.
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I have been sick for a week and a half with a really bad cold and flu, which my 30-something doctor says "Nah, it isn't swine flu," so I take his word for it. He doesn't believe in dispensing antibiotics freely, so...
I got good results with a Prevention diet program, but first had problems with the online program, then got sick, but I have fridge stocked with protein and want to go with their meal plans to try to cut way back on carbs, which I could eat exclusively.
by CATWALKER
5.
a decade ago
Thanks for stopping by, I always love your comments. A Garmin is a wrist GPS that calculates directly how far you've walked and how fast. A few years back I saved 1 cent for every calorie I burned, and I bought some gadgets with the money to reward myself. The Garmin is one of them. - Life just isn't fair, but everyone has his own cross to bear, and one of ours is our weight. It could be worse. And you are doing so well coping with it.
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by MIRIAM
4.
a decade ago
by BUN201
3.
a decade ago
This is the first time that I have ever made portobellos at home. They were actually Dole brand mushrooms, and I guess they were average size! //I will do them again and pay more attention!!//I actually said to a friend of mine the other day do you think we'll count calories forever? And I think it is a sad reality. Having gone back "home" to visit my WW friends several times and seeing how many of them have re-gained most, if not all of their weight in the 4 years that I have been gone, I know I would rather be inconvenienced by having a plan to follow than to have to lose this weight all over again. And the reality is, once you get to maintenance, its all about moderation, and knowing when to say when and get back to the plan -- and you're DOING that.//Don't ever short change yourself the success you've had!!
by NMA5632
2.
a decade ago
you make a great point about the desire to eat without consequences. i have the same thing -some evil part of me is convinced that I can eat without seeing the numbers i want to see go down go UP! but you have learned to love your healthy choices- like your new vegetarian lifestyle, and that is fantastic
:clap: you are a real coffee connoiseur! i am impressed! i used to grind my own beans but i hate the noise of the grinder in the morning (so loud!) so now we just buy the coffee already ground. it *is* delicious, though, that first day that I bring it back from the store and it is just ground and super fresh. mmmmmm!
by NEIMANMARXIST
1.
a decade ago
I find that I want to stuff my face (binge) when I feel that I have a situation that I don't know how to fix or can do nothing about. I guess my mind thinks if my hands are doing something I am working on it. I caught myself wanting to stuff my face last week when dealing with a frustrating situation. I simply told myself that is not doing something to help and stopped.
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by MOM22SONZ