I logged my food today and realized I will be over my calorie count for today because I ate a big bk. I could cut the rest of my meals, but i would rather let exercise equal out my calories count for the day. So, I will have to make it to the gym sometime today which may be hard since I have a full day and night planned. I could cut out going grocery shopping and save that to do tomorrow afternoon after my meeting that I have to go to in the morning, but hubby will want to eat tomorrow. Won't be able to exercise outside today either do due the Ozone alert which will keep me from outside exercising due to my asthma. So, it's the gym or the sub-division gym tonight or going over on calories today which will put me in the maintenance range instead of a weight loss range. What I won't do is allow myself the attitude of, " Oh well, I'm all ready over, I might as well go ahead and blow it some more. " This is my favorite sabotage thought when I get in this situation.

Often when I reach this point it will lead to a binge or to just over eating because I get a don't care I all ready blew it attitude. I decided I am not going to allow myself this attitude any more. It's time to grow up and out of this childish behavior. Yes, I said childish behavior. Isn't this what it really is ? A grown up temper tamper of sorts ? Me getting my way, instead of doing what's right. If your child ran into the pantry and started to grab food and stuff him or herself, would you let them ? Of course not if you were a good parent. I, when I let myself do these things, am acting like a child, even though I try to convince myself I have good reasons to eat this way. Denial always has consequences at any age. This I have learned in recovery as a food addict. Today, my journey takes me to recognize that I have been acting like a child and will need grow up.

In lighter thoughts, my young dog Callie is calming down. She has learned the word " chill ". When I say chill she now knows that I mean to stop jumping up and down and get calm. Then I will pet her. I use the word " calm " too for the same thing. Whew, I thought this dog would never settle down. Don't get me wrong, this is a very hyper dog, but at least I can now get her to calm moments. Xena is the exact opposite type dog. She is cool, collected. and calm 99.99 % of the time unless you say two words : " Walk, Treat ". Need I say more !

I have a very busy week end ahead of me. It's on the weekend that I can visit blogs. I hope to get Sunday to do so this weekend. So, I will stop by then and visit many of you then.