Today is a going home story of sorts for one person in my family. While I was at church a video was being played in my niece's church of her father Jimmie telling his story of a year long battle with cancer. Actually, it had been a six year battle with mass cell leukemia. As the video was being played around 11:30 am in his daughter's church, Jimmie went home to be with the Lord as if to prove a point to those watching thee Earthly bound video. That he was no longer bound by his earthly body any more. What a good story and point of Easter. Christ had conquered death and Jimmie knew that. He told the people watching his video that he had come as a 12 year old to that realization that Jesus was God and would forgive him of his sins. He would not only be forgiven, but be able to not be stung by death in the since that when HE died HE could go and be with God in His heaven. It was not by being a good person that he would get into heaven or by anything he would do on earth, although Jimmie was a good person for sure. In the end, it was Jimmie's faith that pleased God and made him the man that we all will remember him by.

Yep, I have had that clump in my throat all day. No matter how prepared I was for this, it still hurts and I ache in side big time. I have cried my little heart out for sure on more than one occasion. Unfortunately, I have blown it big time this week in the food area. I am thankful not many family members go through this in my life or I would be three hundred pounds because I have not learned to control my food when under mourning yet. This will have to be a lesson I will have to learn because this will not be the last time I will face the death of a love one. I just failed miserably with Jimmie because, well, I really don't know why. Maybe because I was more emotionally close to him than my other BIL. Anyway, I will have to really be strict with myself for the next few weeks because of the damage I have done. Tonight at least I got out and walked a couple of miles and also used my exercise bike while we watched a movie.
Weight wise, I don't even want to get on the scale !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thankfully, I can get back on plan for a few days then take my weight and scream then !