I've been gone fro a while mainly because our computer was acting up. Hubby took it in and the store wanted $200.00 to put in a bunch of software to make it faster. Since this is a ten year old computer, we didn't see the sense in putting in that kind of money into it. So, hubby just down loaded himself one piece of software which did speed up the computer. We didn't have any virus', so it seems to be a problem with reading Internet sites. I don't quite understand this, but right now getting a new computer won't solve the problem either. The new computer would have to have the right soft ware too to combat this too. We simply don't have the extra cash now for a new computer, or I don't want to spend my money on one. I am saving up for my custom shoes. These shoes are my first priority. For those who haven't been following my blog, I have a weird size foot due to bunions and can't fit into regular athletic shoes. I have pain when I exercise wearing the shoes I currently wear now. Custom running shoes are my only answer. I am also going to see if these shoes will prevent me from having to have foot surgery. At least my husband and diabetic doctor want me to try this first before considering foot surgery. If the shoes work, then they want me to go this route first. Ugh, it just cost so much to get the first pair because of the set up molds etc.

Food has not been good and I have not been good. I let my emotions run amuck this month. I have paid the consequences with weight gain. Thankfully, I can now get on the c-box and start getting back on CK to use the dairy. I had been writing down my food, but that is not enough. I need to pre-plan my daily food for things to work out for me. My hubby has finally decided to go on a meal plan with me ! Well will see, If he leaves the measuring to me or if he measures his own food. I prepare his lunch so he doesn't have to do that. He needs to take care of his own BK and snacks. We are attending a First Place for Health class which will go over a meal plan. I am waiting to see if he leaves every thing to me or does his work !

I have a lot of work myself now since I am 40 pounds from goal. Ugh. It's my fault. But I have learned that relapse is a cold reality. The strength of an individual is whether they can come back and finish the race. That is something I learned about my BIL at his funeral. He was good at finishing what he started and hanging in there under insurmountable odds. That's the spunk an attitude I need to finish my race. None of the stinky thinking excuses that I have been using for the past two years to justify why these forty pounds are ok. I have proven I can do it and my body will respond. It is now just a matter of ME being obedient yo God and letting Him help me. I need to stop whining and start walking the walk.