I will have my first surgery this Wed. It i a simple nerve block. Then in a few weeks I will have the accurascope on my back to work on the scare tissue and herniated disc up through my right lumbar section. It will take me six weeks to recover from that. I am a good candidatefor this proceedure since this is all that is wronge wwth my back and I have been getting my back mapped out for ten years with the very doctor performing the surgery. I chose this procedure over open back even though it's a relatively new procedure for the very fact there would be more coplications with open back to just clean uop the backand fix the herniated disc. I don't think they can work on the SI joint unfortunately which is a pont of constant pain and makes walking a real bummer. Anyway, if I can just tone down some of this pain I will be very greatful.

I'm back logging what I eat. As if I should have gotten awy from it. With me I need accountablity. I should have also logged how I was feeling too about life and noticed that when I was stressed, angry, or excited, or deppressed I would want to give up eating healthy. Logging would have been an emotional key or looking glass for me to notice that. I could look back and say, oh, last week I ate real crappy, was the a reason for it ?
Anyway, I'm learning that I must do things like this because someone like me doesn't really have the choice. It's not just because food will be a life time issue for me. I believe it will not as far as it's addiction, but it is as far as my medical conditions are concerned. Therefore, I have to have peace about this, even when I get tired of it.

You bet I got burned out and tired of having to count calories and carbs and of having to deny myself. I got tired of not being able to be what I once was. Reality check. That's just life Lory. We all have to deal with life and not let denial beat us about it. Those who can let bitterness, anger, feeling sorry for ourselves etc. defeat us, will have happy lives no matterwhat we face in life. Weight loss, learning to have to eat a certain way, learning to stay fit, etc. this is a part of life I have to learn to have peace with without complaints. I have to learn how not make it my enemy, not to be afraid of it nor to avoid it, but to make it my friend and have un with it. It doesn't control me, but is a prt of me because it is my friend who will make my life more enjoyble.