FINALLY,
I am going to have that back surgery on Tuesday. I drive into Dallas for it Monday. It's a evassive back surgery, meaning I am avoiding being cut open. The surgeon will make a cut near my tail bone an inset a scope with a laser and go up and through my spinal cannal. Hopefully they will be able to repair my disc and other bad tissue. I'm hopeing they can do some work on my bad SI-1 joint as well. In the long run I hope to have less pain when I walk and get rid of the pain down my leg.
I'm doing well on stopping two really bad habits which I needed to break. One is at the grocery store, the other is getting up in the middle of the night an snacking. The grocery store habit was buying food I didn't need to bring home that would wreck my diet and my budget. The way I stopped that was to take cash to the grocery store and stop using my debit card. Oh yea, with that restriction, I knew I had to stay on budget. I withdrew so much money each payday just for groceries and set a limit to how much I would spend on food. I use my calculator in my phone to keep me on target at the store. Thankfully my store has one of those machines that tells you how much you are spending on fresh veggies and fruits when you weigh them so that helps you know exactly how much you are spending. Anyway, at the end of my trip, I know if I have enough and walla, those extras, get put back if there is not enough, or I know there won't be for latter on the next week ! This has worked at well on training me to eat just what I need too.

I heard Susie Orman say that people who have a finacial problem often have a eating problem because their problem is often one of excess. She was right when it came to me. As I learn to budget my money and set priorities, I am learning so much how it relates to food in my body. Do I need that object ? Is it a need or a want. Do I need to eat or am I emotionally eating ? Eating for need or spending out of emotionally pleasure ? It kind of comes from the same area. I have never been one to wait or deny myself when it was to my benefit to do so. I have done the opposite in fact. I have partaken when it was to my harm in fact and when it would eventually get me in trouble.Now I am learning self retraint. I guess it's about time, I'm only 57 !