NEXUSNRG's CalorieKing blog
Tuesday, May 25 2010 - I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?
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Actually don't kill me. But I am a loser, a weight loser, once again! I've had the month from hell it seems like. May has been a total pain in the ass for me. My last positive weight loss was at the end of April, and ever since I stalled out at 380 Lbs for two weeks, and another week I went up to 382 Lbs. Then last week I went up to 386 Lbs! W T H?!?!?!
Over this past week I actually topped the scale at 390 Lbs for a day. These were probably my most darkest, depressing time on this journey. Felt helpless, out of control, no light at the end of the tunnel type of depression. I find that when I get like that I'll get real quiet. I won't post on my blog, on others blog, or in the forums, or nothing.
Yesterday I weighed myself and was 383 Lbs. Better but still not good enough. And this morning I weighed in again and I'm happy to say that I came in at 380.8 Lbs. So I logged today's weight too and I'm back to 380 Lbs. I just hope that the next few weeks will have positive loss and that this stalling is over for now.
A couple of times over the past couple of weeks I wanted to just give in to food and eat what ever I wanted, but I fought those emotions and desires off with a PR-24 Nightstick! Thankfully I stayed on my calorie target every day and just kept doing what I needed to do in hopes that the storm would pass, and I think I'm breaking free now.
For those of you reading who have yet to struggle with, or are already struggling with a plateau or stall in your weight loss, DON'T GIVE UP, DON'T GIVE UP, DON'T GIVE UP, oh and btw, DON'T GIVE UP!!!! Keep doing your routine, keep eating healthy and maintain your target at all cost. It'll pass and you'll be a better person for going through it.
Over this past week I actually topped the scale at 390 Lbs for a day. These were probably my most darkest, depressing time on this journey. Felt helpless, out of control, no light at the end of the tunnel type of depression. I find that when I get like that I'll get real quiet. I won't post on my blog, on others blog, or in the forums, or nothing.
Yesterday I weighed myself and was 383 Lbs. Better but still not good enough. And this morning I weighed in again and I'm happy to say that I came in at 380.8 Lbs. So I logged today's weight too and I'm back to 380 Lbs. I just hope that the next few weeks will have positive loss and that this stalling is over for now.
A couple of times over the past couple of weeks I wanted to just give in to food and eat what ever I wanted, but I fought those emotions and desires off with a PR-24 Nightstick! Thankfully I stayed on my calorie target every day and just kept doing what I needed to do in hopes that the storm would pass, and I think I'm breaking free now.
For those of you reading who have yet to struggle with, or are already struggling with a plateau or stall in your weight loss, DON'T GIVE UP, DON'T GIVE UP, DON'T GIVE UP, oh and btw, DON'T GIVE UP!!!! Keep doing your routine, keep eating healthy and maintain your target at all cost. It'll pass and you'll be a better person for going through it.
9 comments so far.
9.
a decade ago
Thanks for all of the comments everyone!!! You're all the best.
by NEXUSNRG
8.
a decade ago
I just love you Jimmy!
by PRNCSSGRL
7.
a decade ago
Glad to read your blog!!!! Hi!
by SOFTSPOKEN
6.
a decade ago
Told you so!! I knew you would do it and I now bet you that you will start losing as fast as you gained and next weigh in, it will be six more pounds down!! I bet you!!
Seriously, great job, Jimmy. I am not sure I could have your tenacity in my darkest hour. I am totally impressed
by BDEMOTT
5.
a decade ago
I love your last paragraph. I have had to tell myself that so many times in the last year. You are doing this, Jimmy. And you are doing well. In fact, I'd say you're doing pretty amazing. Being able to deal with the ups as well as the downs will teach you a lot more than just going down down down and having the expectation that will always be the case.
I hope everyone reads your last paragraph. Words to live by!
by HAPPYNSWEET77CHI
4.
a decade ago
Monadnock brand?? I mean I need specifics man... I might need one of those myself and wanna know which works best!
Good for you to break past this! I have been struggling for the past 2 months but mainly because I'm having binging issues and other things. I think this Warrior Weekend jumpstearted me and I think I might be ok again!
by ANIMOSUS777
3.
a decade ago
Good for you Jimmy! Very impressive weight loss AND sticking with it.
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by KATHY60
2.
a decade ago
Thanks Debbie. I'm trying, really. That had to suck to get the new scale and it do that to you. Hope you're doing good too!
by NEXUSNRG
1.
a decade ago
Happy for ya Jimmy! So glad to hear the storm is starting to pass. I got really depressed when my scale broke and I had to buy another one and there was like a 5 pound difference. That was a blow to the gut and hurt for a while, but it passed and there have been brighter days. I see much brighter days for you too, so keep on doing what you are doing and the results will follow!
by MRSDSB