Has anyone ever noticed just how much Mark Hamill looks like Alton Brown? What exactly is it that jedi's eat? After all, Yoda was disgusted by Luke's survival food, exclaiming, "how do you get so big eating food of this kind?"

I'm happy to see that the plateau I was dealing with for the last month has finally turned itself off for a little while at least. Monday (my weigh in day) I came in at my lowest finally of 369 lbs. Well on Wednesday that number went down to 366 lbs. On Thursday back up to 367 lbs and also 367 on Friday. On Saturday I dropped back down to 366 lbs. And today (Sunday)........ 365 lbs!

I'm 365 lbs right now. I have less than 15 hours till my weekly weigh-in, and I still have about 600 calories left to make target for today (Sunday). So my hopes of being at least 1 or 2 lbs lower than last week's weight is pretty much in sight. I can't believe I'm 4 lbs less than Monday's weight. I haven't seen any losses like this for over 4 months now.

Of course I realize this is only temporary as my body will eventually adjust again and the weight loss will slow down, but it's good to know I'm recognizing that pattern now and it won't discourage me as much any more. Now when I have no weight loss I just shrug it off and keep moving on. I know the foods I'm eating, and the calories I'm consuming are right for me, and I just need to let my body naturally catch up with the efforts.

It's so crappy how the scale still has an emotional tie on me. Even though I know in my mind that the scale is evil and must be punished (sledgehammer?), even though I now know that these stalls in weight loss are normal and expected I still get down, and when I see losses like the one this week I get really happy inside. If only I could better manage the emotions. One thing at a time I suppose. Today I manage shrugging off bad scale numbers and moving on, tomorrow I learn to manage the emotional toll of lows and highs based on those numbers.

I really had nothing to talk about today. I'm glad that Bonnie fizzled out before reaching us, I'm so not ready to deal with another hurricane right now. I'm also glad that it's finally my two days off. I've been needing these days off all week long. Even though I have nothing planned, I have zero energy, its too hot outside, and I have no friends to do anything with so I'll be spending it at home in my darkly lit room. No real complaints right now.

I was hoping weight loss would increase my energy levels but so far 56 lbs (err I mean 60 lbs) loss hasn't made any difference. I'm still tired. I think (feel) its a result of working late nights all the time. My body is fighting my day time sleeping schedule. I don't sleep 8 or 12 hours anymore, it's more like 5 or maybe 4 hours and then awake the rest of the day and night, and on my days off I end up passing out around 1 or 2am which would be right in the middle of my work day schedule. Before anyone makes suggestions, NO I will not quit my job, or change shifts. I love the shift, I love the co-workers, and the place I work. I have to manage it some other way, but right now going to another shift or job is not an option.

I'm just babbling now, I hate that. So I'm gonna end the blog and hope everyone reading has a great weekend, and even better week ahead of them.