NEXUSNRG's CalorieKing blog
Tuesday, Oct 26 2010 - I am the basket case.
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Do you have the time, to listen to me whine, about nothing and everything all at once? I am one of those melodramatic fools, neurotic to the bone no doubt about it.
I'm just ranting, not seeking advice okay...
I haven't eaten anything from a fast food restaurant in 11 months now, but today I've been thinking about just saying screw it. I'm very depressed right now and I haven't moved the scale in a positive direction since August. I keep bouncing between 358 and 362 every week. I can't go to the gym because these mysterious pains keep reappearing in my foot and I'm going through a bout of that as I type, making it very painful to put any pressure on it.
I have let my food choices go a little here and there and being discouraged has everything to do with it. That's why today I'm just saying screw it. I'm thinking about getting dressed and driving down to Hardee's to order me a Thick Burger meal. But part of me is still saying NO DON'T DO THAT!! It just seems like if I eat light I'm still not going to move the scale, and if I eat that junk I'm not going to move the scale either. If you don't see Hardee's food listed in my food diary then you'll know that I decided to stay home and eat something healthy instead.
And being sexually frustrated isn't helping matters either. Not being intimate with someone for nearly 6 years now sucks. I'm so sick of being lonely and never having anything to do with anyone on my days off. And when something looks promising it just seems to slip through my fingers like sand.
Billy Joe said, "I went to a shrink to analyze my dreams, she said it's lack of sex that's bringing me down. I went to a whore, she said my life's a bore, so quit my whining 'cause it's bringing her down." OH SO TRUE!
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I'm just ranting, not seeking advice okay...
I haven't eaten anything from a fast food restaurant in 11 months now, but today I've been thinking about just saying screw it. I'm very depressed right now and I haven't moved the scale in a positive direction since August. I keep bouncing between 358 and 362 every week. I can't go to the gym because these mysterious pains keep reappearing in my foot and I'm going through a bout of that as I type, making it very painful to put any pressure on it.
I have let my food choices go a little here and there and being discouraged has everything to do with it. That's why today I'm just saying screw it. I'm thinking about getting dressed and driving down to Hardee's to order me a Thick Burger meal. But part of me is still saying NO DON'T DO THAT!! It just seems like if I eat light I'm still not going to move the scale, and if I eat that junk I'm not going to move the scale either. If you don't see Hardee's food listed in my food diary then you'll know that I decided to stay home and eat something healthy instead.
And being sexually frustrated isn't helping matters either. Not being intimate with someone for nearly 6 years now sucks. I'm so sick of being lonely and never having anything to do with anyone on my days off. And when something looks promising it just seems to slip through my fingers like sand.
Billy Joe said, "I went to a shrink to analyze my dreams, she said it's lack of sex that's bringing me down. I went to a whore, she said my life's a bore, so quit my whining 'cause it's bringing her down." OH SO TRUE!
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9 comments so far.
9.
a decade ago
Hey just checking on you dude. Are you still on here? It sounds like you hit a level of frustration, but I hope you are at least still trying. I had you set as a "favorite" because I was inspired by your progress early in the year. But like you, I hit a period where I basically said screw it, and I dropped away from CK.
Let us know if you are still around here. Hopefully things are looking up since your last blog post!
by SCOTTSCHELB
8.
a decade ago
Hang in there. You most certainly can hang in there you are a warrior.
:heart1:
by MARIPOZA75
7.
a decade ago
Jimmy, the sinister voice telling you to sabotage yourself is not the voice of a friend, an ally, or anyone that has your best interests at heart.
by SOFTSPOKEN
6.
a decade ago
Ditto! Hang in there Jimmy! I'm glad to see you back here. We all are here to support you. You've come so far, so cut yourself some slack . . . you'll make it.
by KRIS319
5.
a decade ago
Hugs from BC!! You can do it Jimmy. Stay away from the poison, junk food. Mama Bea says eat your vegies!!
You are young, you have time, you will lose.
by BDEMOTT
4.
a decade ago
Hang in there Jimmy. Sometimes life is just a burden, but it always turns around. Sending you positive thoughts.....
by MENOKEO
3.
a decade ago
by MRSDSB
2.
a decade ago
The answer is not at Hardee's or any other fast food joint.
And you can lose weight without exercise by sticking to your calorie target.
by GOODKAT
1.
a decade ago
Hey Jimmy! Its good to hear from you again. You've been rather quiet this month. hang in there and stay strong. Maybe you can find some other exercises to do so you can stay off your foot a bit. Maybe some weights, rowing machine, etc??
Pulling for you bro!
by THORNEAPPLE