After our Mops meeting today, I stopped with my kids to get my son some popcorn ; He hardly ate any of it. Guess who had a whole bunch? A 650 calorie caramel corn binge. I have done my best to salvage the day. I did my workout and that helped. Workout felt great. There are a few things from brunch that I don't know how to log. I just can't figure out how to figure it. So there are some blanks. And then tonight I had some jelly beans and I'm pretty sure I had more that one serving like I recorded in my log. So my calorie count for today is not entirely accurate. I just don't know if I can face the numbers.
I feel discouraged again today-not about food, about my other situation. Then the food gets intermixed with that, so then I get discouraged about that. I just feel so sad and discouraged. My husband is upset about the house being cluttered. He doesn't blame me, he says. It's all of us. But I feel like he puts at least a little more of the blame on me. I try, but he doesn't see how many times I straighten up only to have it messed up again an hour later. He doesn't see all I do.
On a positive note, I have written the first paragraph of my paper. I know that doesn't sound like a lot, but getting started is the hardest part for me. Once I get started I get some momenum going. I plan on doing another paragraph or 2 tonight. Soon all 30 pages will be done about 3 years. Just kidding.
Later!