I keep going over my calorie targets. It's so frustrating. Yesterday I did really well until I had a bunch of honey roasted peanuts. Had too many-those are addicting. It's that sugar again. I need to stay away from it or only have it in controlled portions. Today I had cookies at my MIL's and then when I got home the boys had made popcorn-the fattening kind with tons of oil and butter. I had too much of that because I was really hungry. I tried so hard to do well the rest of the day and not go over my net, but it's not happening. Two good things: at least it's pretty close and at least I didn't say, "oh well, I already messed up, so I might as well go full force." I thought about it quite a bit and decided to salvage the day as best I could. I'm so proud of myself for that. It was hard for me.
My husband is going out of town for a week on a business trip. So it will probably be a difficult week in that I take care of the kids by myself. Collin and I will probably be ready to kill each other by the week's end. But I'm hoping to get more done with my husband gone. I don't know if that will really make a difference though. It's just so slow going on my paper. I think I'm being a perfectionist about it.
I'm doing well with "no candy". I've had many temptations and have said, No, I'm not eating candy. I'm determined. I've decided I need to do the same with cookies when I go to MIL's house. I can't seem to stop at just one cookie, so I decided not to have cookies at her house anymore. If I have cookies, and really I rarely do, it will be planned and in a controlled portion.
I'm just really learning so much about myself right now. I hope this gets easier soon.