I just want to eat an entire cake right now. An entire cake!! I made a chocolate cake for my son's birthday and I just want to dive into it. It's because of my husband. Things were better for a few weeks. We were getting along so well. I felt so hopeful. Then things got bad this week again. He's working very long hours. He's crabby with me, snaps at me, makes me feel stupid. This weekend I attempted to stand up for myself and set limits on his behavior. It only made things worse. I can't stand this roller coaster-ups and downs. I know this is normal in a marriage, but I hate it. He's good in so many ways Fantastic father. I really appreciate him. But when he's in these moods, everyone is miserable and I don't want my kids to grow up catering to his moods. I think writing about this has only made me want to binge more. It was supposed to help. Okay, I'm going to have a pudding snack and go to bed. I'm exhausted. I will work off my frustration at the gym tomorrow and leave the rest in God's hands. There's nothing else I can do right now. And binging will only make me feel 100 times worse.