Another day down with BFL. I'm loving this program so far and I don't feel deprived (usually). I feel so good about what I'm doing. I read in Cynthia's blog that she likes the structure of this program and I think that's what I like about it too. I think that's really good for me. And, at least so far, I like cutting out all of the junk. It's hard for me to only have a little of something. I wonder if cutting it out completely for 6 days a week will work better for me. We'll see. I don't want to get too ahead of myself as it is only day 4 and enthusiasm is high the first week, but I'm so proud of myself for the self-discipline I have had this week. I keep telling myself that I'm nurturing myself this way by being healthy and I'm showing myself respect.
My mother in law sent home those gluten free peanut butter cookies-even though I asked her not to. She insisted I take them for my husband. I didn't have any!!! I remembered how they made my stomach hurt last time, but I loved the taste. But I kept reminding myself of that pain and how far I've come so far. My husband says he'll take them to work with him tomorrow.
I haven't really told anyone that I'm doing BFL except for my sister. So I didn't even tell my husband because I know what he would say. Well, tonight I mentioned something about being able to eat junk on Saturday and he saw me making something with the protein powder and he asked what I was up to. I just said I'm increasing my protein and allowing myself one free day per week. I think he knows what I"m doing since I tried BFL a few years ago and he probably remembers (and how awful it was for me at the time). Well, he just smiled and then rolled his eyes. This is why I didn't want to tell him, but he would figure it out eventually as he sees me eating. Oh, well. I know he's seen me start things before and not finish them. But I feel like I'm a different person now. I have a completely different outlook on life now than I did a few years ago.
I feel like I have so much more to say, but I'm so tired. I guess I'll just have to try to write more tomorrow.