Okay, just about a week under my belt and still doing well. Today was a little tougher, but really not until my husband got home and things got more stressful. I'll vent about that in a minute. Normally I would eat emotionally and I really wanted to. But this program kept me focused. I kept saying to myself, I'm not hungry. I just ate. I can eat again at my next snack. I'm just a little stressed out. Good job to me.
Tomorrow is free day. Joy!!! But so many others have warned against how awful it feels to go overboard and I remember that from the first time I tried this. Really, I haven't been dying for anything that I will go crazy with tomorrow. I know what I want for breakfast--gluten free english muffin and donut. I've seen them in the freezer all week. And I know I'll want some icecream. My hubby wants to BBQ, so beyond that, I am hoping I'll be okay and won't go hog wild (literally).
I had a wonderful day today. I decided not to go anywhere and to stay home and work on cleaning my house. It was great. I played with the kids outside. I got my kitchen thoroughly cleaned. I mean, I took everything off the counters and cleaned them. Can you believe that? I made my sink shine, just like FlyLady says to, because that especially has been bugging me. So I now just have to do the upkeep on that room. Next week I'll work on getting another room in tip-top order.
Then my husband came home. Very tired. And in a bad mood. Although he claims he wasn't. He is completely oblivious to his own emotions and moods. He honestly is not self-aware. Amazing that he's married to a counseling student!
Anyway, his negative energy just brought me down. I hate that I let his mood do that to me. He really didn't treat me poorly or do anything wrong. He just complained about things and had a general bad attitude. He was great with the kids, though. I need to learn how to detach from his negative energy and I just don't know how to do that.
Here's one thing that is really bugging me. He puts our 3 year old to bed each night. Lately, he's been going to bed at 10:00 or later!!! I don't even know what time he finally falls asleep. I have talked to my husband about this many times. He will not listen to me on this. He is working late now and does not get to see our kids much. So he keeps the 3 year old up late, in my opinion, for himself. Well, today our son was so crabby. Plus he wouldn't eat much. (I hope he's not getting sick). I told my husband, I really think he needs to go to bed early. He needs more sleep. My husband wants me to look up in my "little books", as he calls them, how much sleep a 3 year old needs.
Our son then proceeded to turn off the lights in the living room, lay on the couch with a pillow and blanket. I told my husband, "Uh, I think he's ready for bed." I had to say something SEVERAL times before they finally went to brush teeth. AAHHHHH!!!!! I can't remember the key stroke for head banging smilie or else I'd put it here. So frustrating!
Any suggestions are very welcome from anyone.
Okay, that was a long, detailed vent. But I needed it. Thanks for reading.