NIKKI8's CalorieKing blog
Wednesday, Apr 18 2007 - BFL Week 4 Day 4
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I am really struggling today. I went to my friend's house and she was making chocolate brownies with mini snickers on top. I made a mental note to make those on free day. Then when we went to Wendy's I made good choices but wanted a frosty so bad. I made a mental note to have one on free day.
Earlier in the week I kept thinking about eating Trix cereal all day and made a mental note to have it on free day. See a pattern here? Free day sounds like it is going to be a disaster!
I have so many moments that I just want to give up. But I am keeping on. I wonder if it is worth it. Is it going to work? It's so hard. Most of the rest of the country eats like crap, maybe I should too. Maybe I shouldn't be so worried about this.
Usually at this point is where I see some really fat person in Walmart or somewhere and I think, "Do I really want to be another fat American? Do I want my children to see their mother as a fat woman or have obesity problems of their own?"
Okay, so that's my reality check.
It's only been 4 weeks. I need to be patient. I can do this. I'm so proud that I've cut out the junk so completely for this long. I know I've had times that I've messed up, but more days than not I have kept to the program and did not have chips, candy, icecream, soda. That's amazing. I need to remember that.
Earlier in the week I kept thinking about eating Trix cereal all day and made a mental note to have it on free day. See a pattern here? Free day sounds like it is going to be a disaster!
I have so many moments that I just want to give up. But I am keeping on. I wonder if it is worth it. Is it going to work? It's so hard. Most of the rest of the country eats like crap, maybe I should too. Maybe I shouldn't be so worried about this.
Usually at this point is where I see some really fat person in Walmart or somewhere and I think, "Do I really want to be another fat American? Do I want my children to see their mother as a fat woman or have obesity problems of their own?"
Okay, so that's my reality check.
It's only been 4 weeks. I need to be patient. I can do this. I'm so proud that I've cut out the junk so completely for this long. I know I've had times that I've messed up, but more days than not I have kept to the program and did not have chips, candy, icecream, soda. That's amazing. I need to remember that.
4 comments so far.
4.
a decade ago
I think you did great and your though patterns and confirming that you ARE changing the behaviors you want to!
:y: You don't have to eat all the things you want on free day you can choose two from the list or agree to a certain amount of each thing....one brownie, 1 cup of trix and a certain amount of the other thing or pick one this free day and leave the others on the list for the next free day. All those things are going to continue to be available to you!!! I know it's tough but you are doing a REALLY great job Nikki! I am PROUD of YOU! 
:kiss:
by MOM22SONZ
3.
a decade ago
I didn't read your blog yet, but I
:love: 12 sharp. It was my fave but you gotta read em all. Forget that paper! 
:$ They were all really cute and fun. I am glad you are enjoying it! 
:kiss: Thanks for your sweetness! 
:)
by MOM22SONZ
2.
a decade ago
Yes, I absolutely agree with kr ... you had a GREAT day. You had all these opportunities to give in and you didn't . You showed amazing strength. Remember that. And here's another reason to keep going -- all the extra years you will be able to live to enjoy grandchildren! (I know, I know ... it's a little early for us to be thinking about grandchildren, but it's not too early to care about living a longer and healthier life!)
by JEWELRYLADEE
1.
a decade ago
see i think you had a great day because you said you are making a mental note to save it for your free day. you made a good choice today and thats what the whole program is about. if you save it for your free day, when that day comes, the craving most likely will have passed.
I do the same thing when thinking i just want to give up. but just keep on working hard as you are now and you will reach your goals. I too look at people and think i dont want to end up like that, and sometimes i think i am being mean, but its all about being healthy for you and for your kids. you are on the right track, just keep doing what you are doing and you will be fine!
by KR1814