Exercise Report
I did BFL Upper Body Workout today. :thumbu1: I really increased weight on some things and changed up the routine, so I'll have to see how sore I am tomorrow.
I also did a 45 min. walk. But my HRM is being really weird. It's driving me crazy. Today it showed 46 or 68 for the first 10 mins. Then it ranged in the 90's or low 100's when I know I was working harder than that. So frustrating. So I had to use CK's numbers.

Food Report
I did well MOST of the day. The mistake was the afternoon snack. I was starving from so much exercise and I ate dry cereal and ate way too much of it. I should have planned better. Or even grabbed another protein bar if I really needed to. Everything else was healthy and on plan except for a few cookies I had with my son tonight.

Daily Joy Report
Staying home all day with my kids!!! It was great for 3/4 of the day. I'm never home all day and I just really enjoyed it. I didn't get much housework done though. In fact, I'm not sure if I got any done. I am making tamales since my husband requested them. I made the meat today and will make the rest tomorrow. But I spent the day doing that, getting my exercise in and playing with my boys! I need to do some cleaning tomorrow though.

Daily Gratitude Report
Day 1 of potty training went pretty well! He didn't fight me or scream when he sat on the potty like in the past. We had 3 accidents, but I'm happy with how it's going.
He got really cranky and almost hyper tonight. I wonder if the stress of potty training (and maybe not going anywhere) was getting to him.

Other Thoughts
Still trying to figure out what I want to do about food. I got upset tonight that I was over my calorie target. I was something like 1560 after all that exercise and I set my target at 1300. I was bummed and just wanted to go get icecream!!! I know--such stupid thinking. But I didn't do it.
But it makes me wonder if I should take a break from logging or what.
I have an appt. with that counselor next Thursday. I'm hoping to work through some of these issues with her.
I have moments where I feel like I'm figuring it out and answers are starting to come and then moments like tonight where I'm bummed about my cals and feel like I'm back at square one.
I had a moment yesterday where I looked in the mirror and realized that for the most part I really am happy with myself. Then that thought scared me because what if that thinking makes me gain weight (not literally ).
But I think I may have been on to something there. If I can be more accepting of myself and not so hard and critical, maybe I can focus on being healthy and stop focusing on numbers and what I should not be eating and doing.
Just random thoughts on my mental mind games dilema.
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I didn't get to write in my blog last night because my husband was on the computer so I'm writing about yesterday this morning.

Exercise Report
I walked for 45 mins. with my stroller group. We do some intervals--simple strength training exercises with a tube, but nothing heavy. Burned about 230 cals.

Food Report
:thumbu1: Good day yesterday. I stayed on plan and did not have any foods not on plan. But I was over calories, but since it was all healthy foods, I'm not going to worry that much. I'm just thrilled there were no binges or junk food.

Daily Joy Report
I had to take my older son to an appointment and someone watched the little one for me. It was so nice to spend time with my older son alone. I realized we never have alone time without the baby around. I really enjoyed having time with just the 2 of us and I really want to take time to do that more often.

Daily Gratitude Report
I am so thankful that I can trust in God to take care of me no matter what. I know with these difficulties and challenges right now, God will lead me and bring me through them.

Other Thoughts
We are potty training today--underwear and all. Cold turkey. Yikes!!