Exercise Report
Nope, No exercise today.
Busy day. We had some friends over for a playdate; dropped the kids at the babysitters so I could get my hair cut. Ran some errands (my kids were way over tired) and instead of exercising during their nap, I gave tamale-making another try. No go. Another waste of time. I tried another masa recipe as I had alot of shredded meat left, but this one was no good either. I can't figure out what I'm doing wrong. But I am done, I tell you, for a long time with making tamales.

Food Report
Well, I decided to not log today. It was really scary and that tells me a lot right there. The thing I need to remember is that not logging does not give me a liscense to eat whatever I want. I did awful today. I ate whatever I wanted. So I will consider today my free day.
I really think I just needed a break from official "dieting". I mean, I know I have gone off plan many times. Today was an intentional break, although I didn't mean to have quite as much as I did.
This is still a soul searching journey for me.

Daily Joy Report
I had a wonderful visit with my friend today. It was one of those visits where you feel refreshed afterwards because you really feel like you connected with that person. I love moments like that. But then, making connections with other people is very important to me. Part of my personality.

Daily Grattitude Report
Today I was thinking about the uniqueness of my boys and was thanking God for their special qualities and the neat ways they see the world.

Other Thoughts
I bought a book today called Thin Within. It is a 30 day program dealing with healing your relationship with food and dieting through your relationship with God--if I understood it correctly. I think this is exactly what i need right now.
My perspective lately has been so out of balanced. I'm worried about myself and my preoccupation with food, weight and exercise. I'm terrified to gain weight. I need to look at why (the world is not going to end and I will not be considered worthless if I go back to my prepregnancy/ pre-Celiac weight--I have to realize this).
I probably mentioned this already but my appt with a counselor is next Thursday and I plan to work through some of these issues with her.
I can say one thing--I certainly am learning alot about myself through this journey. I just wish what I am discovering was prettier. It isn't. It's quite messy in this head of mine.

And another thing--Edy's Butterfinger Icecream is laced with crack. I'm convinced that this icecream and Corinne's chex mix must be made in the same facility. I kept going back again and again today for another "taste" (i.e. half bowl!!)

Does anyone else think they are addicted to CK? I'm semi-serious. I'm on here 3 or 4 times a day and I'm wasting lots of time. More so now that I'm done with school. Maybe it's a transition thing. Don't know. But almost every night this week I planned to scrapbook after my son went to bed. But I'd get on here to blog or something and before I know it, it's 11:00 and I'm not going to start working on the scrapbook then.
I have decided I need to seriously cut back on my CK time. I love reading blogs, checking in with my challenges and making comments. And that is really all I do. I don't even look in the regular forums normally. And I only read certain blogs that I have saved on my today page. How is this taking so long? Does anyone else have this problem? Or am I just really slow? (Yes, you can take that either way.)