Food Report
I had 2 good eating days in a row and then today I did not do as well.
B-Oatmeal and 1/2 waffle
S-grapes
L-McDonald's southwestern grilled chicken salad, 1/2 sprite, few fries
Icecream
S-Chips Too many!!!
D-Beanie Weenies and more chips! Ugh!

I was just thinking this afternoon that not logging is freeing for me. I know what to do and how to eat healthy. I don't need to look at the numbers to know what I'm doing. And I think looking at the numbers would have made me more obsessed.
The thing that set me off today was at McDonald's. We asked for icecream cones in a cup (our gluten reasons) and they gave us huge amounts in McFlurry cups. I shared it with the baby (he actually ate quite a bit), but my older son didn't really eat much of his. I ate the rest of his too.
I was so mad at myself. It tasted so good. Honestly, I don't know what the deal was.

Later, I went grocery shopping with the kids and they had no nap. They were actually pretty well behaved. My son opened the chips in the car and I started eating them too. Then I was full and just kept eating.
I think it was the, "well, I already messed up" thinking. That is one of the goals I had written about a few weeks ago to overcome that behavior. Still working on that.

Okay, observation and correction. No judgement or condemnation, right? Just let it go, learn from it, and get back on track.

Exercise Report
BFL Lower Body Workout. Also did 20 min. cardio kickboxing video.
I didn't get to exercise yesterday-I was just so exhausted and I rarely just skip a workout. So I was trying to make up for it today with the cardio video.
Also tonight after my husband took my son upstairs for bed, I took my bike out around the neighborhood for about 20 minutes. I felt so heavy from all the chips and I need to get more practice on the road. Well, I can't believe the difference it makes to ride on the road vs. spin class or just a stationary bike workout. My tri (bike leg of the team tri) is in August and I'm so afraid I won't be ready. I have got to get out more!

Joy Report
Ya know, aside from exercise, I didn't really do anything for myself today. But I had several moments of joy with my kids today.
Plus my husband brought me flowers with a card today. Definitely a joy.

Grattitude Report
I have hope for my son's eating and sensory problems. We went to the OT yesterday and she gave me some exercises to do with him at home 3 times a day. I knew he would resist and he did. But I can tell that he secretly liked it and I think he will come around.

Other Thoughts
My husband says he's "skeptical" about the OT evaluation with my son. He isn't sure that there really is a problem. He thinks he's clinging to certain foods because he was diagnosed with Celiac and has had to give up certain foods. But our son has been avoiding fruits, vegetables and meat since he started table food. He hates to be messy. I think it's clear that he has a problem with textures and has sensory integration issues in this area. He now refuses to eat any fruit, vegetable or meat (occasionally a hot dog or ham, but not often). He lives on yogurt, PB&J, chips, crackers, fruit snacks and icecream. Sometimes he'll eat some gluten free pasta. I am so worried about his nutrition.
My husband is worried about him feeling different and being "traumatized" by going to therapy and having to do these exercises at home. I know I had the same thoughts. But I think he already feels different. He sees us eating foods normally (normal for Celiacs anyway.) This morning the baby and I were eating oatmeal. Collin helped me put brown sugar in the oatmeal and stirred it up. He finally tried a bite of it and gagged and spit it out. I know he really wants to eat different food, but it's so hard for him.
My husband is willing for us to try this for a while and see what happens. I just know that these things take a while to see results and I feel like this is really important.
Okay, long vent today. But I wanted to get my thoughts down.