Update
Food Report
So far today:
B-cherry ch. chip pancakes
S-protein bar
L-Cereal binge with Cap'n Crunch (see below)
S-
D-dinner out at a Mexican restaurant--I ate too much

It all started with picking at my kids food this morning. I had a few bites of my son's waffle and a couple pieces of cereal. (Yes, C! I know.)
Then after I did my bike ride this morning (see below), I was starving in spite of the protein bar, because I had to take the boys to get their hair cuts and we didn't get home until 1:00. I was really hungry. I wish I had brought some fruit.
I just didn't have a taste for anything. As we were driving home, I was thinking about driving through somewhere, but nothing sounded good to me and choices are so limited because of gluten free. My only choices are really a salad or a chicken breast (except at McD's-they have wheat in the coating of their chicken )
Plus I think I was dehydrated, even though I drank 6 cups of water. 12 miles is a lot in the sun and I think it just took it out of me. When I'm dehydrated I crave sweet stuff.
I had packed cereal for the kids' snack and started munching on it on the way home, with the intention of having only a little to tide me over when I got home.
Well, when I got home, nothing sounded good to me. So I just kept eating cereal.
So there you go.
Next time: bring extra food and water after a workout like that. I'm also going to try to buy a cereal that I'm not crazy about. I love almost all the gluten free cereals that are available, so it's hard. But I'm going to look the next time we go to the store.
If you can't tell, this gluten free stuff makes things so complicated. Usually I'm okay with it, but today I find it quite frustrating.
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Update:
Oh my goodness, I ate a lot at dinner. My husband and I have been craving Mexican food at one our favorite restaurants. So we planned to go tonight. We don't go out very often with the kids, but we like to do this once in a while. Well, wouldn't you know, tonight they were both crabby. My husband cannot stand to go out when the kids misbehave. I was nervous and ate tons of chips and salsa while I was trying to entertain the baby. I am so full right now. I hate this feeling. (can't quite remember that smilie, oh well).
Really for being crabby they both did pretty well. The baby was a little fussy but able to be distracted and was great once he had real food (I kept giving him fruit snacks before it came, but he wanted real stuff). Our older son just kept throwing toys on the floor, but we just took them away. He whined a little but was fine. My husband freaks out over these things and when we were all done, he tood our 3 year old to the car so I could wait for the check and pay. Whatever. He can be so weird.

But the moral of the story is, I did not enjoy my food the way I wanted and so overate. I think if we don't focus on our food and can savor the experience, then we eat more to make up for it. We are looking for that satisfaction.
That's why Thin Within says to eat in a calm atmosphere free from distraction. Yeah, right! With a 1 year old and 3 year old! What's calm and distraction free?

Exercise Report
As mentioned above I rode 12 miles on my bike today. I was so thrilled with myself as this is the distance of my triathlon. So now I know I can do it. It took me a little over an hour and there were no hills. So I need to get some training on some hills. But I will get to that soon. It felt great to be out on the trail again and it felt so good to accomplish this goal.

I've been thinking about this ride throughout the day, and I realize I'm in better shape than I ever was. When I used to ride my bike before I had kids, I remember how 6 miles was really tough for me. So I am really proud of the shape I'm in, even though I'm not at the weight I want to be.

Joy Report
That bike ride really was a great way to take time for myself and a true source of joy today.

Grattitude Report
My son seems to be responding to the brushing therapy. He's getting used to it-he still whines a little bit, but it is easy to overcome that resistance. Tonight at the restaurant he ate a quesadilla!!

Other Thoughts
I did weigh myself today even though I'm trying not to. I'm holding steady in the mid 150's. I really want to be less. Not just numbers but my stomach is pooching out, my face is fuller, and my thighs are bigger than they were a couple months ago. I'm trying to be patient with myself as I am figuring out my compulsions and issues and all that. But it's hard. I'm worried I'm going to keep gaining. And I'm having a hard time accepting where I'm at today. I'm trying. I'm hanging in there, but feeling discouraged.