Food Report
B-oatmeal
S-protein bar
L-Chik-Fil-A: grilled chicken breast, fruit cup, 1/2 powerade and a few waffles fries. All shared with the kids.
S-yogurt, banana, peanuts
D-3/4 c. white rice w/1/2 tbsp. light butter
S-Banana split from Braum's
Buttered popcorn

Oh, such a bad night with food. Now I knew we were going to be going out for icecream and so I was trying to eat light to get ready for it. But that banana split was so huge. 3 scoops of icecream, toppings, banana (of course), nuts, whipped cream. My goodness! I was sooo full and I ate every last bite.
So I decided I need to order something smaller next time. No more banana splits. I can make a healthier version at home.
The stupid popcorn was because I got the munchies even though I wasn't hungry. I should have made a 100 calorie bag, but nooo, I had to make the ultimate butter bag and I ate almost the whole bag myself.

I feel so awful about myself.
I went shopping today for an outfit for tomorrow. I tried on some tops and skirts and I felt so fat. Understandable since I've been a size 10 for the last year or so. It's hard to be this weight again even though it is my "normal weight". I found it very discouraging.
I just feel like I don't like myself right now.
I just can't get it together these days and I'm so afraid I'm not going to be able to. I want to give up today. I'm tired of failing over and over and over.
I try to tell myself different things in the moment of temptation and it doesn't seem to help. What is it going to take? What is going to make the difference? What will help me decide to make healthy choices?
I just don't know anymore.

I almost forgot to write about my exercise
I went running with my friend and since both our husbands were working, we pushed our double strollers while we ran! That was the first time we had done that. We did a different trail and didn't know the distance. So we ran for 10 mins. walked for 5 and ran for another 10. I was dying on that last 10 mins. I walked a few paces here and there but my friend pushed me and I made it. It is hard to push a stroller of 50lbs + full of kids.
I also did BFL upper body workout since I didn't get it in yesterday.
So while I didn't have a good food day, I'm glad I at least did some great workouts.

I keep remember things I meant to write about and I have to come back to my blog and add to it.
I am so excited about tomorrow. The plan is for my hubby and I to go together ALONE to celebrate my graduate degree. We are going to Branson and my MIL is going to watch the boys.
I knew we were going to see a show in the evening, but we were trying to decide what to do during the day. My husband mentioned the indoor waterslide park and he also joked around about checking into a hotel for a few hours.
So as I was thinking about it, the indoor water park is in a hotel that gives you free passes to the park if you book a room. So . . .
I figure we can play at the park until check in at 3. Then we can (ahem) "play" in our room, and shower to get ready for dinner and the show. We are going to see Star Spangled Broadway where they do patriotic songs from Broadway musicals. I hear it's really good.
Only thing I'm worried about. My husband came home with a horrible headache today and has felt awful. We didn't even go to our car show because he wasn't feeling well. That's pretty serious!!!
I already paid for the tickets and booked the room. I don't want to lose the money.
Plus I am a little worried about being away from the kids all day. We will leave at 10 am and won't be back until like 11 pm or later when they will (hopefully) be sleeping.
My 3yr old will really miss us.
But we need this desperately!