What is the deal with this week? Yesterday was crazy and today is turning out that way too. I can't seem to get anything done in my house. Of course the fact that I'm sitting here instead of cleaning the kitchen may have something to do with it.
I didn't get to update my blog last night because I had a late night. I went running with my friend and then went grocery shopping and didn't get home until almost midnight. I was so exhausted.
And I was so hungry. I forgot my water when I went to run, so afterwards, I stopped at a gas station to get a bottle of water and I also got an orange push-up (It sounded good since I was so thirsty.)
Well, I didn't feel bad about that. But I got home from shopping and there were crackers on the table. I was honestly hungry, so I had some. And then I had my icecream with hot fudge. I think I should have skipped that because of what I had earlier and since it was so late.

Today:
B-oatmeal and eggbeaters
1/2 handful of chocolate chips (stopped myself from having more )
S-Zonebar
L-Veggie Salad with ham and light dresssing; 1/4 cup strawberries
D-beef and broccoli, white rice
S-jello w/cool whip, icecream w/hot fudge

I was overwhelmed by all the things I had to do today and started eating chocolate chips. When I realized that this was emotional/compulsive eating, I stopped.

I had an appt with the chiropractor this morning, so I dropped the kids at my MIL's and after my appt I went and got a pedicure! That felt really good and just what I needed. Then I ran a few errands and went to a bookstore. I bought a book called, When Women Stop Hating Their Bodies that sounds really interesting so far.
I am having a bad self-image day again. I feel so fat. My clothes are all tight and I am hating myself. I know that this is not healthy thinking and that is one reason I bought this book. I am doing the best I can to follow my plan. I make some mistakes, but I'm doing pretty good. I need to be patient and stop beating myself up for gaining this weight.
I think I really need to forgive myself for gaining weight and just do what I can to be healthy. But it is so hard. I'm very mad at myself about it. But being angry and beating myself isn't burning anymore calories or melting any pounds. It's only making me miserable.

Perspective on my Big Boy/Baby
After writing about my frustration with my 3yr old, I talked to my husband about my frustration. He said if that's the biggest problem I'm having with him, then that's pretty good. He's right, as our son is a pretty good kid. He responds really well to time out; he's a very sensitive child. I also remembered that I read that many siblings have difficulty when the new baby starts walking and Carter started walking a few weeks ago. And it was just the last week and a half or so that he's been walking a lot more. He's really getting the hang of it and can walk across the floor or down the hall before he falls.
So that, the potty training, the sensory integration issues with new occupational therapy--he is dealing with a lot and maybe I should cut him some slack and let him act like a baby if that's what he needs.
Maybe it's just me that needed a break from it for a few hours and I got that today.

Okay, hopefully I will be able to finish updating later.

Exercise Report
BFL lower body workout and 20 min cardio kickboxing video