NIKKI8's Jul 2007 CalorieKing Blog
Post holiday fat blues
Thursday, July 5th 2007
I'm having another bad self-image day. I feel so fat and I just really hate myself for what I ate yesterday. I ate chips, my evil trigger food, even though I vowed not to.All day today I've been having a battle with myself about my feelings about myself. I am so impatient to lose a little weight. My clothes feel tight. I hate how I feel. I beat myself up about it.
But then I try to get some perspective and forgive myself and focus on the accomplishments I've made. But I bounce back...
The Fourth
Wednesday, July 4th 2007
We are going to a car show today (we have a 54 Chevy) and then coming home and bbq-ing. Just my hubby and kids.So I am faced with the decision that we are all faced with: to go off plan (allow myself triggers) because it is a holiday or stay on plan. As I was thinking about this, I thought of the self-hatred that would ensue if I went off my plan, holiday or not, those self-condeming feelings would be there. It's just not worth it.
So, no triggers today. I am going to be mindful o...
Perspective
Tuesday, July 3rd 2007
What is the deal with this week? Yesterday was crazy and today is turning out that way too. I can't seem to get anything done in my house. Of course the fact that I'm sitting here instead of cleaning the kitchen may have something to do with it.
I didn't get to update my blog last night because I had a late night. I went running with my friend and then went grocery shopping and didn't get home until almost midnight. I was so exhausted.
And I was so hungry. I forgot my water when I w...
patience, patience
Monday, July 2nd 2007
Food LogB-oatmeal, yogurt
S-few cookies
L-veggie salad with light ranch, watermelon
S-Zonebar
D-oven fried chicken tenders, corn on cob, small baked potato
S-orange push-up, 10 crackers, light vanilla icecream w/hot fudge
Cookies happened because of poor planning on my part. I took the kids to the doctor and then went to a short grocery trip. I was starving as were they. We opened the cookies in the store. I had a few, but not too many. Cookies are not a trigger food fo...
Trigger Free?
Sunday, July 1st 2007
Food ReportWell, not an awful day, but not a complete success either.
B-waffles w/light syrup and a mango
L-mariinated chicken breast, mashed potatoes, mixed veggies
S-handful of chocolate chips, pear
D-2 tacos, rice, beans, some chips
Reflections of the food today: My goal is to be trigger free. No chips, no candy, no cereal. During lunch, everyone else was eating chips (2 kinds) and I didn't have any.
That was really hard! I really wanted some.I kept saying things t...