I'm back!!! I got back to Missouri from Chicago last Monday. I know--I should have updated my blog. But my family was here until Thursday. My mom drove us back here and my nephews came with. We were so busy doing things while they were here.
Then on Friday I packed our suitcases again (actually I never really unpacked) and we went to Branson for a car show. It was way too hot to do that. It was 100 on the dot when we left and my poor little boys were so tired and hot. We've done this show for 6 years now and we don't think it's worth it with the heat and the set up.
Anyway, now I'm trying to get caught up on my life.
My husband did very little to the house while I was gone, other than mess it up. It is filthy and will take a while for me to clean.
I finally went grocery shopping today. We had very little food. The night we got back, he didn't even have milk here for the kids!
But it was a great trip. I had a wonderful visit with my family and I miss them so much already.
However, we were gone almost 3 weeks (only 2 days short of 3 weeks as my husband reminds me) and I think it was just a little too long to be away from home. My husband was going crazy missing the boys (and me a little).
Things have been a little better between us since I've been back. I can tell that he is really trying to not be crabby or take bad moods out on me. And I can tell that it is hard for him to break that habit! But there, at least, is hope. And I did not have that a few months ago, as you may remember.

Now onto the weight and food issues: the whole purpose of CK, of course.
Well, I gained quite a bit. I don't know how much because, thankfully my husband did as I asked and hid the scale for me. I really think that scale was torturing me and trigging much obsession in me.
I was much less obsessed with both food and wieght while I was there. I worried but not as much.
The thing is, my clothes do not fit right now. And I have a roll on my stomach. An actual fat roll that was not there before I left. How horrible is that.
Now that I've written that I want to cry.
I am going to start by again cutting out those trigger foods and following my icecream rule. And I am reminding myself that baby steps are the way to get there. Don't go crazy. Don't obsess. Start with small changes to get back on track.
So that's what I did today and I did pretty well, except I had some chocolate chip cookies today and had too many. We don't usually have cookies around and they usually aren't a trigger for me, so as soon as they are gone, I'll be fine.
So that is where I'm at right now.

And I cannot decide if I should renew or not. I must make up my mind. I'm leaning towards not. My membership runs out in December. I just don't think I"m using CK enough to get my moneys worth. But I just wonder if I will later. Still thinking about it . . .