I have been doing awful with eating lately. So I'm going to plan my meals for tomorrow.
B-oatmeal
L-chicken/rice casserole; apple w/caramel dip
S-Protein bar
D-chicken fajitas
S-strawberries and coolwhip

Planned workout: Turbo Jam kick punch and crunch and Ab Jam
I did 3T today and my shoulder is bothering me. So I will have to see if I can do that video tomorrow. I really want to do the video rotation, so I hope that just going easy on the moves will help, but I don't know. It hasn't helped so far. I need to see a doctor but we just changed insurance and I hate finding new doctors.

Motivation central:
focus on the goal
When I want to eat off plan or when I'm not hungry, do something good for myself. Do the 10 min. yoga video. Make a cup of tea. Sit down and breathe deep for a few minutes. Read a book for 5 mins. Pray and lean on God.

Ugh, even while writing this, I have this message inside my head saying I can't do this. I have failed so often and I'm going to fail again. I'm not sure what to do with that voice. I have tried in so many ways to fight that same message, and I'm just tired now. Tired of failing. Tired of fighting. I feel resigned to failure, but I know it doesn't have to be this way.
I'm still here. I'm still fighting and I'm not giving up.