I had a day of really clean eating and it felt really good. But the reason I did so well was because I did my junk food fast. It seems like unless I do it for spiritual reasons, I cant do it on my own. If I hadn't made a vow to God to abstain from junk food, I would have had chips and pop. Maybe a caramel apple (that is tempting me in my fridge.)
I hadn't done a fast in a few weeks and it felt really good this time. And it reminded me of how good I feel when I don't eat junk. I feel good physically and emotionally. I need to remember that a single moment of junk food isn't worth the emotional anguish and the physical effects to my body.
Anyway, on another note, we are in such a bad spot financially. I don't know what to do. We have always had enough money for our bills, and if we had to put grocery, gas and other expenses on the credit card, then that's what we would do. But there is not enough money for bills and I'm really stressed about it. I am hoping my jewelry business takes off. But it's not something I can count on right now.
I am trying to trust in God, but that is so hard for me in the area of money. I feel like I need to do something. Looking at these numbers just makes me feel so hopeless.
I do not want to have to go back to work yet. I am hoping to get a job teaching preschool where I can have my kids with me and only work part time. But I hope to do that next fall to cover my student loan payments that will start then.
Anyway, that is all for now. I am focusing on not eating emotionally. Eating only when hungry. Those are my only goals right now.