I have had a crazy couple of days.
Yesterday I spent 2 hours at an orthopedic specialist getting xrays on my arm and knees. My arm has been diagnosed with bicep tendonitis and I have to rest it for a few months. No upper body activity. I am so bummed about that. But picking up my kids irritates it so I don't know how I'm going to heal completely. But stopping any upper body exercises will help.
The other thing was about my knees. With my old ortho dr, I got a series of synvisc knee injections. This doctor doesn't want to continue them because he feels like we'll be treating the symptom instead of the cause. He doesn't want me to have to get injections for the rest of my life. I completely understand and respect his thinking, but I'm so worried about what we'll do if the pain comes back. The injections really helped. He said to just come back when the pain kicks in and we'll explore more options then.
So I picked up my kids who were tired and cranky. I will spare you the details, but by the time I got them into bed, I didn't know if I should clean, exercise or take a nap. I was so overwhelmed by the things I had to do and I didn't feel well. I called my sister and she advised me to clean (my house was trashed). I mopped my kitchen and had to use 2 Swiffer pads because it was so dirty!! (It had only been a week, I swear, but you know how little ones can be on a floor). I did feel better after I cleaned.
My older son woke up and could barely talk. Things got worse from there. My husband brought Taco Bell home for dinner and I just ate the stupid PB Cups after dinner.

Today was a little better. I took my son to the doctor. He has a horrible chest cold and can hardly talk. They did a strep test, but it was negative.
I did get a workout in.
30 mins. elliptical and an ab workout
I ate healthy except for dinner I made pizza. But I made steamed veggies also and only had 1/2 sprite.
I haven't gone grocery shopping this week and had nothing to cook.
So I hate that I had pizza, but I did the best I could and did not let it turn into a binge. So I am proud of myself for that.

I was feeling so guilty that I didn't workout yesterday and that I gave in and ate the candy. But this morning when that thinking started of "Oh, I can't seem to do this right. I am messing up." I stopped myself and remembered something Corinned told me . Yesterday is behind me and there's nothing I can do about it. Let it go and focus on today.
I felt empowered and was able to put it behind me.
So I am not perfect but I am having little victories. Little victories add up.
Oh, and I'm getting rid of the candy. I told my husband to take it into work tomorrow. I don't need the tmeptation, the kids don't remember it's there and really, they don't need it either.