I am having a really rotten attitude today and I need to snap out of it. It all started yesterday. I had a very long and important day with my jewelry business. I did a show/open house at a salon all day long. I brought my food in my cooler and did great with that. It was a planned DOR because of this event and I also had my splurge meal in the evening (also planned). I picked up Mexican food on the way home and had a huge meal. Ate way too much, felt terrible, and vowed not to eat that much at a splurge meal again. I also somehow pulled a muscle in my lower back that also ran down my leg and was in some pain last night.
Well, fast forward to this morning. I usually do my favorite spin class on Fridays. I opted not to spin due to my back and leg, which at this moment now feel much better. But I just had a bad attitude about getting back on my plan. I didn't want to work out and I didn't want to eat healthy. So I have not eaten on plan, I finished the chips from last night's splurge meal (I meant to send them with my hubby to work). Luckily, there is not much junk food in the house, so I haven't had much junk, but still have made poor choice I should not be making. We did have pop and I've had that, plus some leftover pizza. Why?

Well, I think I am in a funk because my business show did not go well. I was really stressed and worried about it for over a week. I had invested money to advertise a little and give the salon owner a percentage and so on. In the end, I broke even with my investment and profit. I made some business contacts, but I don't know what will come of it.
So I think I'm feeling sorry for myself and I think I'm also just disappointed and pissed about it all. But that does not mean I should be eating junk. It does not make me feel better, only worse. It has not helped my business. It only derails me from my goals.
I was also getting caught up on Corinne's blogs and Wednesday's really impacted me. That was the one about her 2 responses to very similar questions. I felt like the second girl. I eat on plan about 4-5 days a week. So I can't expect stellar results when I don't put in stellar efforts. I don't want to encourage mindset of perfectionism in myself because that only leads to all or nothing thinking or FGT that will permanently derail me. But I need to face the fact that if I want to reach my goal to fit in my jeans more comfortably by Christmas, then I cannot be messing around, wallowing in self pity and allowing myself to eat emotionally.
I was also worried about this weekend and the holiday weekend. Weekends are so hard for me to eat right and exercise. So unstructured and I am not even positive what our plans are yet. So how to plan? My family is coming next Wed. and I felt stress about not having a plan. But I sat down and started making next week's menu and I'm feeling better about it. I will not eat clean on Thanksgiving, but I won't go hog wild either. My goal is to be careful the other days while my family is here. I called my sister and she wants to eat healthy too and told me to buy groceries and plan meals. So that is great. Now I am getting back on my plan today and this weekend. No more excuses.