Update: Okay, finishing my report on yesterday now. Yes, Sarah. That is exactly what I was thinking about the 3 Musketeers. It's the lesser evils of all the candy bars, the best choice. So that was good. But I didn't think of this until much later--there was a GNC in that strip of stores too, so I could have gone in and gotten a protein bar. Oh, well. Here's the victory. Just because I ate off plan, I didn't let it affect the rest of my day. I usually am so all-or-nothing that I let a slip up detour the rest of my day. But I put it behind me, decided I did the best I could in that situation and let it go. Major progress for me. That deserved 3 smilies!

I am thinking about not eating back all my exercise calories. I am thinking that because of something Corinne at PNP has said. That all the little bites and licks you take during the day ,and don't write down of course, add up to 200-300 extra calories. Of course, her point is to stop taking those little bites and stuff. And I will eventually, but right now I don't want I put too much more on myself. I do take a bite here and there of my kids food, or I don't measure out a portion of pretzel and might have more than I'm logging. Just something I'm thinking about right now. Until later!
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I have now had 3 good food days in a row. I am really proud of myself as I haven't been able to say that in a while. I feel strong right now and motivated. Amazing since it's December, the worst time to try to watch your weight. But I think it's like Ashli commented one day, I eat better when I stand up for myself in my marriage and don't eat over those issues. I feel empowered in my life and with food.
And Kerri made a comment yesterday that really made me think. She said she hasn't ever read such a positive blog entry from me. I think I had to hit rock bottom with my food struggle before I could pull myself back up. The last few months, and some times during the summer, when I just gave up, ate whatever and felt hopeless were my rock bottom. I didn't think I would ever gain control again. But I had to go through that to get to the place I am now. I had some issues to look at straight on before I could get my focus back. And when I first started CK and did the BFL challenge, I was so anxious about my food and weight. I was so afraid to lose control and I did. Now I feel like I'm at a more centered place, where I'm eating healthy because I care about myself, not because I'm afraid like before. What a difference.

I did have one slip up yesterday. We were running an unexpected errand after preschool. I had to get stamps for my Christmas cards. Blockbuster was next door. Traffic was crazy as was the post office. Carter and I hadn't had lunch, but we did have morning snacks. We were both very hungry. We went next door to Blockbuster to get a gift card for someone on my list. Carter grabbed a candy bar and I got it because I knew he was so hungry as was I. So I had a 3 Musketeers.
We just had a potty emergency. I'll have to update later.