Food
Update on yesterday's food. Well, after the shake incident, I had dry, sugarly cereal for lunch and drank a coke later. But I did great for my dinner and evening snack and was not too bad over calories for the day. That shake was pretty small. The victory is in the fact that I didn't turn it into an all day binge. I got off track a little, but got back on. It took some major self-talk and turning around that a-or-n thinking, but I did it.
I think I have much more confidence in myself about losing weight and doing "this" right now. I feel like a year ago, I was forcing the issue for different reasons. And I just wasn't ready yet. The results were painful, but I learned alot.
Today was an excellent food day. Made healthy food choices all day, except for the little bites of my kids food and a few sips of my husband's pop. I need to put a stop to those little nibbles. They add up and lead to more. But everyone broke out the icecream and had some and I didn't have any!

Exercise
I walked for an hour with my stroller group today. We did strength training intervals and I haven't done any leg work in a long time. I will feel those squats tomorrow. It's time I get back into it.
I am about ready to begin a new strength training plan from PNP. I have to piece it together from different plans because I can't do upper body work. That sucks!

Daily Joy
I don't feel like I really did anything for myself today. I didn't even get up early for my prayer time like I usually do. I was so tired. During the kids' naps (Collin actually slept today!), I got on the computer and I swear I don't think I did that much. I made some comments on blogs, did a few things on the PNP site, researched an exercise video and I think that's it. Before I knew it, 2 hours had flown by and that's all I'd done. I felt like I wasted a perfectly good amount of free time. The internet can truly suck your life away before you know it. I wish I had at least done a little yoga. Oh, well. I need to start setting a timer again so that doesn't happen again.

Daily Gratitude
I was trying to practice self-appreciation again today. Every time I said something positive about myself, I had something to counter it. It was awful. For example, "I do a good job spending time with my kids." I would say a guilt statement, like "but I am so often distracted and busy, I need to focus on them more." Finally, I started saying more general statements about myself. Like "I appreciate how hardworking I am." And that lead me to more statements like "I don't give up when I am faced with a problem but I persist no matter what."
Sigh. That was hard work and really showed me what a perfectionist I am.

Other
Last night I met my friend at the YMCA pool. She taught me some swimming strokes that don't involve rotating my shoulder cuff. Anyway, it was the first time in a long time that I saw myself in a bathing suit. I can't believe what I saw. I have really gained weight and it was so clear in my bathing suit. I couldn't believe the cellulite on my back thighs and butt. Anyway, I felt really determined to stick to my plan and get some of this weight off.
The thing is, I didn't really beat myself up over it. I just focused on my goal. And I was thinking today about that and how I have come to gain all this weight. 2006 was a really hard year for me: had a new baby, a very difficult todder, digestive surgery, found out I had celiac disease and shortly thereafter that Collin had it too.
2007 was all about dealing with those things. I didn't make the healthiest choices in dealing with them, but I forgive myself for that. 2008 is all about creating balance in my body, mind and spirit. Making changes that will be healthier for my kids, for myself and my marriage.